Good day everybody, beautiful ladies and strong gentlemen!
Today I’ll share with you the story of how I have been developing lately.
In an earlier lifetime, I was clingy, needy and desperate to retain the company of a person I loved deeply. I focused in everything I DID NOT want. I only knew to FEAR loneliness and abandonment.
And I got just that. I ended up alone, and abandoned by her.
Already heartbroken from that, I went to consolation to my house. Instead of being supported, my already shattered self was blown to atomic pieces, by abuse of all kinds. They tried to ingrain to me how much of I mistake I had committed by ever having been in that relationship to begin with, and feed me lies about her. Lies I could and would never give any credit to.
It felt like falling to hell itself. It felt like my soul was sucked from my body. Like my life had lost all sense of purpose. It was over. Even if I could not have it consciously within myself to commit suicide, my subconscious mind was destroying my body by making me throw up or otherwise not accepting food. This went on for a full month. It was the most agonizing experience I have ever survived.
But one day, in my desire to rebuild myself, I ended up visiting sites like this.
Sites, books and people who fervently taught about the fullest power of intention. Of thought. Of a sheer and utter desire.
It was very hard to get to the point I am now.
First, I had to get rid of the self-loathing, by realizing it would not get me anywhere but at death’s door. For I surely hated myself for the way it had turned out. For my supreme WEAKNESS.
Furthermore, I had to get rid of the guilt. It was not an easy thing. I could not find it right to exonerate myself when I felt I deserved execution for what I had done. I felt it so vividly I punished myself with watching material of people being just that. Punished for their actions.
But it came to a point where I had come to a decision. Bad as it was to commit a mistake……to stay defeated because of it, to let my drive be extinguished like that….is of a far bigger coward.
And I was not going to be a coward anymore. I had an enormous power before it all happened. Enough to manifest things like a $500 USD gaming console, as you may know if you have read “Hello and thank you for reading”.
I decided I owed it to myself to arise from this, becoming more powerful than ever. I wanted to revive my dream of being strong and capable enough to help people achieve their goals and overcome their problems, just as I had done.
And watch me now!
This is good…..isn’t it?