I live in a tiny coastal town in Maine which I totally love; its the greatest and most beautiful place in the world to live and it has the prettiest harbor you could ever imagine, there is just about no crime here and we don't lock our doors in our home and everyplace we go we see people we know, so why do I want to move? - the winters are brutally cold. Ever since I was a little girl I cried in the cold weather when we had to go outside at recess in school and when I had to walk home from school. I grew up, went to college here, got married and settled here all the while dreaming of moving to a warmer climate.
I'm getting older now and my joints are hurting in the cold weather and I also get depressed in the cold dark and gray weather. I got laid off from my job a few years ago which was a blessing really because it was agony driving to work on the lonely icy roads and back home in the dark during the winter months.
The snow we have here is another story, days and more days of snow, and power outages lasting for a week when the ice storms hit us. The wind blows in from the ocean creating a layer of ice on everything including our house.
Since losing my job I've been trying to earn money online, but that story is for a whole new post.
So what's keeping my from moving? My husband won't move, won't give up his job because he'd been laid off 3 times before he got this job and now he has tenure so I don't blame him for not wanting to give that up. My husband also hates the cold weather. He said if I can win a couple of million in the lottery we can pack up and move to a warmer climate, but the few times I bought a lottery ticket I won nothing.
I don't know where to begin manifesting that much money. I'm feeling especially lousy today because I went out this morning and had to scrape the ice off my car to go out, now its raining out and the roads will freeze up when it gets dark out. I look all around me and see everyone else who lives here and isn't bothered by the cold the way I am. They all have snowmobiles and they ski in the snow, but I hate the cold so much I can't enjoy anything like that.
In the summers I feel like I am living in heaven and I am always happy and I am so grateful to be here, but after Labor Day it starts getting cold and by October we have frost at night.
My only sister and her husband also hated the cold and he was lucky enough to get a job in California a few years ago and they moved, he's a computer programmer so he'll always have a job in that part of the world.
I'm trying to get into the right mindset, by being grateful for all that I have, but its hard to be grateful when my body aches in the cold weather.
I've read The Secret, bought the DVD, and read a few other books on the LOA, but other than manifesting a few small things and money for a car downpayment I am stuck.
That's my story and what I want to manifest.