From no contact to "I love you"

[oceanblue]

My love and I broke up about 6 weeks ago.  It was a very ugly breakup and we hurt each other.  We were so intensely in love and had fears that we allowed to overcome us. 

I decided that I wanted him back, and made a visionboard that I looked at a lot to evoke feelings of love and excitement.  There were times I had to put it away for a few days and turn my attention to other things because I was feeling kind of low, and didn't want to look at my board unless I was able to feel good things.  I imagined myself doing things without him and being happy then, too.

I got stronger and stronger in myself.  I tend to be a depressed kind of person and this was the single most difficult thing I've ever done, but by sheer force of will, I MADE myself feel happy and excited about my future, whether it contained this man or not.

I have practiced meditation consistently.  I have prayed.  I have asked for answers and guidance and listened very closely for the answers.  What's helped me immensely for a couple of weeks now has been listening to Abraham Hicks on youtube.  Can't recommend this enough.

I know you can't demand manifestation, and you actually delay it with desperation and neediness.  But today, I felt the desire for my love so intensely that I can't even describe it.  It was a powerful, intense, determined desire but it was not needy.  Just desire.  I wanted something to happen today so much because I am leaving town in 2 days for a week and wanted to have him back in my life before I left, and also for Christmas, even if we weren't going to be together.  I have never felt such determination and desire for anything in my life before.  I felt overwhelmed with excitement because I knew how it would feel when it would happen.

And it did!  After 3 weeks of no phone contact and 5 weeks of no physical contact, we saw each other tonight.  He was SO sweet.  He told me several times how much he's missed me, and shocked me with "I love you."  We kissed constantly and he's coming to see me tomorrow. 

I knew it would happen as much as I knew the sun will rise in the morning.  When it did, I wasn't surprised, just ecstatic. We didn't have a single negative moment and I expect us to grow closer than ever.  I know that will happen.  I hope this gives somebody some encouragement.  I didn't really need any validation that the LOA works but I can add this to my proof list.

[Mariposa, (KnJ)]

Wow, that's amazing!!

Thank you for sharing!!  It puts a smile on my face!!   

[angel_star]

Oh wow, that's a beautiful story about love and detachment! Thanks a ton for sharing this

[Sneha]

Oceanblue : Thanks for sharing this with me.

[oceanblue]

You're all very welcome.  I know that reading other people's stories helped me a lot to build up my faith that the loa is reality.  I have had multiple instances, too many to count, where the loa was clearly at work in my life but there is something about being in love with somebody that can bring out our oldest pain and worst fears.  Losing that person can make you feel helpless and lost and you question everything in life.  To me, it's the biggest type of challenge to my sense of worth and my faith. 

This time, I realized once and for all that I would continue to have relationship problems if I didn't get right with me.  This needed to be done for my own sake, but I can't lie - my intense desire for him was my motivation.  I'm not confident that I would have tried so hard without that spurring me on.  When I felt like giving up, I'd ask myself, how badly do you really want this guy?  If you let yourself sink down into despair, that's MORE time and MORE distance between him and you.  Is that what you want?  It's never worked before and it won't work now!

That kind of self-talk.  I became my own coach.  Like I mentioned, I listened to Abraham Hicks videos constantly and will continue to do so.  They help me when I'm wavering.  And they stop me from wavering in the first place.  In my car, I listen to Rhonda Byrne, The Power.  I have made a conscious decision and continuing effort to love as many things and people as possible, and to be aware of that love.  I have whittled my negative talk (whining, criticizing, self-pity wallowing, judging) down by probably 95% and I'm nervous as all get-out when I engage in the 5%.  I feel so aware of it now.

I also bought a bracelet that caught my eye yesterday.  It says "Love" and "Laugh" several times all around it.  It's my reminder.  I also am reminded to love whenever I see the color blue.  Even without my love and I getting closer, I feel transformed as a person.  I'll never be the same, and that's a good thing.

[SAINAM]

Hi oceanblue..my best wishes for both of you..May you get what you wish for and my sincere thanks for sharing this post.

[Happybeingme]

Congrats! Thank you so much for sharing. I come in here more than anything to read success stories as it makes me so happy to see it working for everyone

[lilypad]

This is wonderful. Posts like this give such encouragement. I'm not exactly in a similar situation, but am using LOA to revive a romantic interest, desire to date exclusively and intense connection between myself and another. I am looking forward to posting something similar soon, lol

[Blore]

This is such a beautiful post. I can feel the loving vibes just bouncing off it.

I can't wait until I can post something like this.

[57angel]

Wow, very inspiring! Thank you so very much for sharing More and more LOAs best are on their way, please share them here

[oceanblue]

There are times throughout the day when I fight to hold back tears, because my heart is so full.  I feel incredibly blessed.  This whole experience has opened my eyes and I now clearly see just how many people and things in my life that I deeply love.  The world truly does transform when you make a point to notice and be grateful for everything you see that you love.  I keep a list on my phone of everything I love, and add to it as I think of things.  I look at it when I feel cranky.

I also keep a list of everything I love about my man.  It fills me with love for him.  I have a list of things I love about myself, and another list of things I will accomplish.

I feel compelled to say this to you all - there were times in the past weeks when I wondered if I had lost my mind, looking at this visionboard I had made.  I thought that if anybody saw me, they'd think I was an obsessed stalker.  Sometimes I wondered if I was, especially since I thought about him all the time.  I wondered if I was creating a delusion and setting myself up for a catastrophic fall.  Then I would remember how much I wanted my boyfriend, and I would force myself to think in another direction.  I'm in my 40's.  As far as relationships go, this ain't my first rodeo.  But that's a big reason why holding on to this love is so important to me.  What I"ve done before in relationships did not bring me happiness.  My attitudes, my behaviors, my outlook on life did not bring me happiness.  What has brought me happiness is paying focused attention on the wonderful people and things around me.  Focusing on the wonderful attributes of the people I love.  Focusing on beauty, noticing and appreciating kindness, and making a conscious effort to emit love to others.

These aren't just words, although I've heard this kind of thing my whole life.  It wasn't until I hit despair that I decided to try something different, even though I felt crazy doing it sometimes.  Yes, my boyfriend is back in my life, and he is reaching for me, making an effort, after I thought I'd lost him forever.  But people are nicer to me in general.  Children seem to adore me now.  People I encounter during the course of the day are always polite and kind and helpful. 

I know I sound like I'm on some kind of euphoria drug.  It's just that I want to describe this for any of you who may be having a similar struggle, where you wonder if this is all just crazy.  I'm telling you that it's not.  Right now, I want love in my life more than anything else, and I'm getting it.  I can imagine the fun I'm going to have when I start focusing on money and career!

I have read and watched and listened so much that's helped me, but I will mention the two things that stand out to me. 

1 - from The Power by Rhonda Byrne.  Notice what you love and feel it & appreciate it.  All day every day.  If you want good things from a person, notice only the good things.  Feel your joy and appreciation for those good things.

2 - from Abraham.  They call it 'being in the vortex'  I've watched/listened to hours and hours and have come to a rudimentary understanding of what the vortex is.  What really resonates with me about this is that you MUST be in the vortex (aligned with your source energy and feeling good) before you focus on your desire, and do your visualizations & affirmations.  If you're not in the vortex, doing these things will make you irritable and exhaust you.  It's a tedious, laborious chore.  There were times when I would try to focus on my desire for my boyfriend and because I was in a crappy mood, it seemed so "off."  So I would just stop the focus, go ahead and accept the crappy mood because when you stop resisting unpleasant emotions, much of their power dissapates immediately.  Feel it and get it over with.  Start your focus on your desire(s) again when you're back in the vortex.

I'm also typing all this out to help me be clear in my mind about what has been working for me.  The loa has brought incredible things to me in my life, but once I got them, I either got complacent (stopped appreciating them) or I became too attached to them and ultimately fearful that I'd lose them.  And I always did.  Every single time, whether it be job, relationship, money, position, self-confidence, social standing, you name it.  I would fear the loss, and the loss would come.  I do NOT want to repeat these mistakes.

[ipanema]

Oceanblue, such an inspiring story   I'm in a similar situation and reading stories like yours is such great encouragement. Thank you for posting. I know I will be reporting back soon with my own success story! I know like I know like I know... 

Love and light to you all x

[oceanblue]

It makes me really happy that my story encourages others. 

It's going very well.  We hit a bump here or there but we handled them and got over them quickly.  I can't help but believe that my new outlook has a lot to do with that.   I'm so in love with this guy and to be honest, the breakup was the best thing that could have happened to/for us.  As painful as it was, it helped to put some issues on the table for honest discussion and resolution.  And I can't doubt his love now.  He came to me.  He made it clear he wanted me back, despite the situation looking bleak and hopeless.  I didn't have to chase him or put together some scheme to manipulate things.  The universe just made it happen, simply and beautifully.

[57angel]

The "no contact" moments you had did wonders in making you both into a better and happier person, towards a more loving and improved relationship and most of all, LOA came into your life - a very precious gift to you and to your relationship

[oceanblue]

57angel, you are so right!  As for the LOA, it's always been in my life but my trust in it hasn't been.  When I trust in the LOA and make a point to be a deliberate creator, amazing things happen.  When I let bad moods and negative thinking and controlling tendencies take hold, well... it's not pretty!