Getting my love back

[marioska]

Hi! I'd like that you help me with my situation. First of all, I want to give thanks to all of the members of this site, and to the Universe too! Well, this is my story: last year I met a guy, and, for the first time in my life, he was the one that was interested on me first! We become a couple and we were so in love... he was always telling me that I was the one that he had been looking for and all that romantic stuff, and I knew deep inside that he was saying the truth; everything was great for the first 6 months, but it all changed when I began to feel fear of loosing him, with multiple excuses: maybe he was tired of being with me, maybe he saw his ex, maybe he was leaving me... And guess what? Law of Attraction is always working! One day he told me that he was beggining to feel doubts about his feelings because his ex had been trying to contact him to give their relationship another trial. And two weeks later he told me that he couldn't continue in a relationship with me because he didn't feel the same about me. You can imagine how I was... But when we met up again to talk about what happened, even he was repeating me again and again that he didn't feel the same, he asked me to hugh me, and he kissed my cheeks several times; I felt that it's not over. Some time later, I decided to delete him from facebook, because it was really difficult to me to visualize that we were back togheter without talking to him, so I explained him that I was doing that to move on. Two days later he called me and invited me to his house, and this situation was repeated again some weeks later. Those times were ok, and he opened his heart to me telling me intimate things, but they were followed by days or weeks without knowing anything about him. And then, one day I went with my friends to a party and drank too much and begged him to come back, and told horrible things to him. I screwed everything I had been working on for two months in a disastrous night! But when I forgave myself I began to work again. I phoned him some weeks later to apologize and to ask him how he was, and some days later (I didn't expect him) we saw each other on a party! His best friend and I began to talk, and he told me that he had left me because I had made some mistakes, but he also told me that my ex does love me and if I make an effort of being kind to him and respecting him, he would be back in my arms because I'm very special to him. And later, my ex (that was feeling bad) told me that I'm the woman of his dreams, but that in this moment he couldn't be with me. After that night, I added him again to facebook, and he gave me thanks for taking care of him the last night; and that day he phoned me and asked to go to his house again. We had a great time, I really felt that he loved me because of the way he looked, kissed and took care of me. He was really kind, but we didn't talk about our feelings because I didn't feel it was time to do so. And now I'm here, trying to be patient and not acting desperately, but asking you for advice... Do you think I'm on the right path? What would you do? Thanks for your time to read my history!