Okay here's mine (it came out prettier in Spanish
For the longest time I have had no idea what you are really thinking
and feeling. This has led me time after time down paths of supposition
and imagination. I saw myself without another option, as you shut down
and refused to tell me what was in your heart. Although in truth I
realize that you have kept your true heart shielded from me much
Now I see you doing the same thing with me. It has become clear to me
that, although I felt I was sincerely communicating my heart to you, I
failed and you were constantly second-guessing me, looking for chinks
and gaps. I can truly, honestly and sincerely tell you that I loved
you with all my fiber, I love you still with all my being and against
my better judgment I will love you until I take my dying breath.
But love to me is not exclusive, but inclusive. It's not limited, but
infinite. Love is both magical and real, both strong and fragile. But
you can't forget that love is a verb. It's something that you do. And
you must do it consistently and with care and attention or it will
fail to grow and will slowly appear dimmer and dimmer.
That is my concept of love. I continue to nurture my love for you
within me, in spite of everything. And my love is boundless. I have
enough love to give my child and in the giving it grows and thrives
and multiplies. I have more and more each day to give. My love may
simply be too big for you. But don't suppose for a minute that I will
ever let it go out. It is precious to me.
I have to thank you from the bottom of my soul for all the memories of
love and joy we shared. Even if it weren't for that miraculous little
life growing inside you, know that you will forever be with me. You
have marked me permanently. And I cherish that and am grateful for it.
Oddly, both the good and the bad equally fill my spirit with a sweet
nostalgic joy that warms me. And I get to enjoy this feeling for the
rest of my days. So thank you, thank you.
Thank you also for the end of our relationship. I cannot deny that
this has been by far the hardest thing I have ever had to endure, but
it has given me a chance to evolve and grow as a man. I am a different
person that the one you left behind. I don't know if you will ever
know the man I have become. You may know, however, that I am secure
and confident, and happy. I can distance myself emotionally from those
things that cause me pain and see them for what they are. I have
learned to let go. yet at the same time I have incorporated the
loving, sentimental me in the mix. So I don't have to become cold and
unfeeling. I have you to thank for this. You pushed me to turn within
myself and find the strength to be happy. You were right that I have
to be happy myself. You helped me want to learn to do that.
I hope you practice what you preach and you find happiness. I hope you
too can learn that there is nothing that will make you happy: no
person, no situation, no thing. Just as there is nothing that can
prevent you from happiness. It is all within yourself. You have to be
happy to see happiness around you. I hope you take that to heart and
learn to be happy. That way you can also make all those who surround
you happy as well.
I forgive you for everything. I am sure that one day you will find it
within you to forgive me as well. I hope you do so sooner, rather than
later, because to carry that burden around with you will only add to
the stress you feel. I know that when both of us transcend to that
place of mutual forgiveness, we will be able to establish a different
relationship. It will most certainly be one neither of us expected.
The future looks very exciting. We have our marvelous little child on
its way who will brighten of her surroundings with joy and laughter.
But we also have all kinds of new horizons to explore. We have the
whole world laid out before us and it is a world of abundance. If we
know how to be happy and express and follow our desires, we will be
able to take part in all that there is to be had. And our little
daughter will the one to benefit from the largess. How wonderful it
is to be alive and to welcome another tiny life among us. Yet one more
thing that I have to be grateful to you for. Thank you. Thank you so