« on: December 13, 2011, 03:32:43 PM »
I am in Love with a boy who I met about 4 years back. He is about 5 years younger to me, but we hit it off real nicely and I have never met anyone who quite makes me feel the way that he does. Let me call him “A”.
We were colleagues at the company and became friends over a pack of cigarettes. After that we got closer with swimming lessons and IM’s in the office. We also started texting each other with hot sexy messages. During that time, I was involved with another guy who was away from India. He was not really paying attention to me and it was like I was having a very fake relationship. “A” came as a nice change. He was all the things that I wanted in a man. Initially we got involved sexually and I really enjoyed being with him. Later on, my then boyfriend broke it up with me. “A” and I were good friends and started hanging out together a lot. We used to have lunch together, go out together etc… And he would always say that he would like to marry someone like me. He would never say that he wants to marry me. Also, he used to keep telling me not to end up falling in love with him. But as I got to know him better, I realized that he is the kind of person I am looking forward to spend the rest of my life with.
One day I told him how I felt about him and he told me that he never thought of me that way and that he always thought of me as a good friend. Once in a while, we used to stop having sex and then he used to initiate it with me again because he couldn’t resist doing it… I used to always hope that one day we would be together and I used to have sex with him because I hoped that he would change his mind some day and fall in love with me. There have been times when I have been extremely jealous and given him a hard time when he has shown interest in other girls and so on. He has tried hard to pacify me during those times. But he has always maintained that he would be nothing more than a good friend to me.
Now it has been one and half years since he has been abroad. He met a girl around 6 months back and when he told me about it, I was extremely heartbroken. So I stopped contacting him with the intention of moving on with my life. But I was not successful as I seemed to miss him more than anything else. This was around the time that I came to read the Book called “The Secret”. I started visualizing myself being with him and ending up as his wife. I wrote down the things that I wanted with him. I hung a happy picture of him and me on the wall facing my bed. I also started talking to him and asked him whether we could be friends like before. He said that we could.
Recently, he has met a girl who seems to be interested in him. He also seems to be interested in her. He has told her to give him 6 months of time to decide whether he wants to marry her. He told me about this and I again told him how I really felt about him and that I wanted to end up with him. To this he said, “I wish you didn’t take it that far”. I told him that I can’t keep talking to him without wondering what I did wrong that he does not even consider me for marriage. To which he said that he was younger than me and his parents would never allow it.
I still am in love with him and in hopes that we will end up together. I feel he is my soul mate and I have never felt more open to a person as much as I have to him. I want him to reciprocate the feelings that I have for him too. I want to end up as his wife and take care of his family and him. I want his parents to accept our relationship.
There have been mistakes I have made by thinking negatively about this relationship. I know there are places where my doubts, fears and insecurities have negatively affected this relationship.
The question I have: Is there a way I can use the Law of Attraction to bring him back to me? I don’t care how long it takes and am willing to work on everything that I have been doing wrong and making it right. Is there a way I can attract him into my life as my husband?
I am a little desperate and would greatly appreciate your help and advice on this.
Thanks in advance to everyone who helps.