It has been the same story over and over again for the last year.
It all started about an year ago. There was a girl that i liked, i liked her for a long time (about 3-4 months) and i wasn't enough of a man to do anything about it
. I had enough chances, and i was pretty sure she liked me, but i still didn't do anything. later on, i go on a week vecation abroad, and when i get back the first thing i do is go and meet my friends. They tell me that she and this guy who has been after her for a long time (longer than me) hooked up, and is now her boyfriend. It hurts, but i survive, i realised i waited too long and make a mental note to ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING the next time i want someone
.
Fast forward to about a couple months later, i went to a friend's party. Me and my ex (who i was with two years ago) spend practically the whole night together, and i start liking her again. im pretty sure she likes me back, as well (again
). At a different party, a couple weeks later, we spend some more time together, and i invite her to my house. we spend about an hour together, alone, in my room, and buyers remorse hits in. I start questioning if i really like her, and decide not to do anything after deciding that i didnt (like the idiot i clearly was
). Some time later, after doing some thinking, i decide that i really want her. That feeling was more intense then the one i had for her the first time, and i told myself that the next oppertunity i get, i do something about it. I also remember i though that it was a bad idea, because maybe she had a boyfriend. I dismissed that though because it was farfetched, and the only guy i though could possibly be her BF was this guy she has a profile picture with. A DAY LATER, i find out that he asked her out, and that they're dating. Feels really depressed that the same thing happened to me in such a short time period, but learn my lessons and take the mental notes for the future.
And today i learned that a girl i started liking a week ago has a boyfriend. This time i didnt have any time to do anything, and i feel really confused. I need to make sense out of all of this. And since i OBVIOUSLY attracted the same scenario three time IN A ROW for a reason, i want to make sense out of this. Do you guys think my unconcious is trying to tell me something?
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