Topics - Happybeingme
My story: years ago I had prayed that I would meet a man with certain qualities that I was looking for that loved me the same as I loved him. My love life was not going well at this point and I knew nothing of law of attraction but just wanted the person i liked to feel the same about me for once. I let this go and didn't think about it anymore. I was easy to do since I had no clue what i was doing and i wasn't really trying, strangly enough. Well not long after this I met someone with all the qualities i wished for and we hit it off immediately. We dated for about a year and it was amazing, then out of the blue he broke up with me. i was shocked and hurt. i learned about law of attraction shortly ater this and decided to give it a try. I realized it was my worrying about how everything seemed to good to be true that made it fall apart. i visualized us back together all the time and thought positive thoughts all day. However when it didn't happen immediately i would get sad or impatient and call him. Calling him wasn't necessarily bad as we were still friendly and when we saw each other everything was great and seemed to fall back right in place to where we were, but then i would ask him about it and he would tell me that he doesn't want to get back together that im not "the one". I couldn't understand it so i would try harder at my visualizations and positive thinking. I went on forums like this and wrote all the time about how happy i was to be receiving my bf back. well as you probably can imagine nothing changed. the key words in what i was doing is "trying" i was trying to attract him back so hard that i spent all my energy on this and got more of trying to get him back and not having him. even when i did positive things for myself it was because i thought i have to do things to be happy so i can attract him back instead of doing things to make me happy so i can just be happy.
then one day he called me out of the blue and said he was going to be in town with a family member. he really wanted me to meet them and then wanted to hang out before he went back home (he lived in another state). Well i met his uncle who even said "I heard so much about you its great to finally meet you". Then later my ex gave me a present. something very small but something i had mentioned wanting the last time i saw him a few months ago. Wow, i coudln't belive it! he wanted to introduce me to his family, he obviously was talking about me, and remembered something i wanted and bought it for me. i thought for sure he had changed his mind! So I asked him about it and again he said he cared about me but im not the one and he doesn't want to get back together........i was shocked and confused again, but after this i finally decided that i loved him and he obvously loved me but he needed to come to that realization himelf and i was never going to bring it up again. i was not going to call or anything and i stopped my visualizations and all. i did't necessarily give up, but i have up trying and finally detached from the outcome. i eventually started to like someone else and it had been about 2 years at this point since we broke up. it wasn't working out to be a relationship with this other person and i know in the back of my mind i still wanted my ex. well out of the blue he texted me to say he really missed talking to me. this time instead of jumping to call him back as i would have before i texted him back saying if he missed talking to me so much then he could call me. he didn't, not for another few weeks, by then i had forgotten that he texted me. he wanted to hang out but i was busy. i called him sometime later to invite him out for my birthday. in all atuallity part of me was inviting him out to make the other guy jealous whom i was interested in. but what endued up happening is we had a great time and as always with us things just fell back in to place, but remembering what happened before i decided i was not goin to ask him about it and if soemthing happens it happens. well from there he called me and we remained in contact and saw each other all the time. we were definately acting like a couple but neither of us spoke about it. Finally after months of this i decided to get over it and ask him about it. it helped that he had spilled his guts to my friend about how much he loved me but didn't think he deserved me. so i already had an idea of what he would sawy. well it went great and we were back together. it was even stronger than before and were talking about marriage. sadly, ater about 2 years i let my fear creep in again. we were long distance now and i kept thinking he would cheat on me and leave me for another. so as you can imagine from LOA this is what eventually happened after thinking it for too long...........
we broke up again and here i found myself depressed tyring to attract him back again. i eventually came to this forum and i read everything and rememebered that what i was missing was the detachment and letting go. i don't need to try to make him love me, he already does. I don't need to try to make him call me, he will when the universe deeems it is time. we are soul mates and we love each other. yes we are not perfect, i am not perect and neither is he. But we love each other and that is all that matters, the universe will make it happen and i have to let go again and stop trying to micromange everything. I am a powerful being, we all are, we get what we create and i am not going to beat myself up for creating things as they are now cuz that is pointless. i am not going to beat myself up for not detaching yet because time is meaningless. I am going to from now on work on me and not because it will bring him back but because i need to be the best me i can be for me and my happiness with or without him. I am not going to worry about what he is doing or how it will happen because that is not up to me, he loves me and the universe will work out the details. Detaching can be difficult and i wish there was a step by step plan to do it but unfortunately it just has to happen when you are ready. i feel ready to let go but if i slip up im not going to worry about it, i can't change the past i can only work on my present and creating my future. i worked out for the first time today in months and i forgot how muc i enjoy the feeling of excersize and how great it makes you feel and the endorphines you get. so sorry for the long post but i just wanted to write out my story and remind myself that i am powerful and create everything in my life. i attracted him back to me before and i will do it again.
thank you for having an outlet for me to share my story
