why do we attract mean and provocating people?

[JustForToday]

today was the first day which got me somehow... in a negative way.

i am not a mean or sneaky person at all, i wasnt before i was into loa and now i changed even more to the better.
even in times of my life, where i tried to be happy and fought on every place, i attracted really mean people who tried to make my life a hell.
in row- it was terrible. my ex BF that time was alcoholic and stalker, i had to escape, lived one month in a guestroom. the new flat i found- the landlord was a big stalker. i had to move again.... found a really lovely flat--- and what?
my neighbour was insane and the biggest sick stalker i have ever seen. this tory would be long, but that is strange hm?
it took me a while to move out again, beside that- my nerves couldnt anymore.
even by thinking of loa, i still dont have a proper answer for that.
i moved into my flat now, i was soooo happy to live finally in peace---- but after only 2 weeks, someone kept removing my name from my bell as well from my letterbox.
at that time, no one knew where i live. so it must have been one of my neighbours.
we are 3 families living here. the woman under me was already strange to me when she got introduced to me. the other one is honest and very nice.
that letter box thing went a while until the nice lady helped me and we had a talk all together, where she stated, she doesnt want to live in a fighting house. ( she is on my side and knew as well that my neighbour was removing it, because of being jealous or some crap) all i wanted to do was living, nothing more, just having peace in my own flat.

ok, that stopped and i made "friends" with her.
now she starts all over again, by placing her washing right in front of my washingmashine, so i really have problems to reach my machine, cause all over me her wet clothes hanging down on me. she did that, even though the whole washing cellar was empty and she knew that it was my place.....
anyway, that is a small thing. i talked today with her and told her to hang it in the middle where her machine is.

sorry for my story being long....

today i got a problem with my 2. job at the gas station, where all went really good.
we are three women there, the boss prefers only ladies from 35 on, i am the youngest, the other ladies are somewhat around 60.
no problem at all with them, cause i am nice as long as other are nice to me as well.
last week i needed to ask one of them, where i had a good connection to i thought-
if she could exchange her shift with me, cause i was being supposed at my main job and there as well. this happens at the beginning of the month, where both give me my shifts, and i work in all shifts---- nighttime, early mornings etc and they can chose for me, its never a certain one.
anyway i needed to change my shift. i asked he politely, she said its not that good, cause she needed to do something, but i should call the boss and if he says its ok then she will do it. i asked again if she is comfortable with it, which she friendly confirmed. i toldl her, that after talking to the boss, i would send her a text to let he know.
the boss was wondering, why i should ask him, he has never heard that before
i texted her yesterday and the day before, no answer, so i anyway wanted to call her, cause this shift thing was supposed to be tomorrow.

today she sent me a text at noon, that she wont do it. i called her, she didnt answer the phone.
i called the boss, he was very angry and was shouting what all this crap is about. i told him that she said yes and now no and i dont know what to do.
he called her, called me back and this women lied that she would have never told me that she would work this day!!!! 
i couldnt believe and i called her. first i got the the other lady at phone, she told me very unfriendly how i beahve and didnt listen to me as i tried to tell her the truth, she ended by telling me how upset she is. i got the other lady on phone and she still stuck to that she never said it. i mean i am not earsick or something? 

she also told me how angry she is with me and stuff and then just hang up. had to call the boss again, who is already overworked and stuff. angry of course, he couldnt understand all, but i guess he belived the other lady and told me, that such thing never happened before- sounded like would be the one making problems there 

now, why and how did i attract that? or is it just the results of my thinking before?
is it still in me, that i am not lovable and not worth to get treated in a normal way?

REALLY THOUGHT I WAS OVER THAT, but today it showed my the opposite

that hit me and for the first time, i cried very much, couldnt believe why she is trying to get rid of me somehow, it seems like that.
my daughter came home, very bad mood, attacked me as well, so i just cried more and went to sleep where i cried myself to sleep. now i am awake again and feeling good that there is a place, where friends are listening to me and help me.

can you help me in how i can protect myself from such attacks?
i just want to live in peace, i dont do any harm to them, but i keep being attacked for no reason 

thank you for listnening, it needed to be said.

sorry for typos, my keyborad is not working well

[onlyhappiness]

crazysoul...
do NOT let these people get you down , you are a beautiful , amazing person!!! I know sometimes it is hard to stay positive , but remember you are worthy and you only deserve the best!!
If you have a problem remembering that just let me know I will remind you
Everything will work out and worrying will only make it worse!!
Sending you lots of love and positive vibes!!!

[JustForToday]

thank you so much.

i know that shoulnt hit me, but i couldnt otherwise. i got reminded of my past, which was full of crap and i never ever want to be in that place again.

right now i struggle to be in the vortex

[MikeG]

In "The Power" in the relationship section, people are determined as "Personal Emotional Trainers" These PET's (not the bottles ) are everybody you know and will ever know. They are there to serve as teachers, so that we may choose love and gratitude over anything else.

This may sound complicated, because I can't quite explain it, but for example in my school there was a guy with whom I didn't get along. He was annoying, cocky and simply dumb. I couldn't stand being near him, but there was a time when he helped and I really saw his true colours. I chose friendship over hatred and that brought us closer. You need to stop sending negative thoughts everytime you see those people and manifest good situations. Affirmations like: I am a great friend or I am loveable by all may help.

I remember this quote from somewhere, but I don't know who wrote it:
"Everybody is your friend. You just need to give them time to see your good side." And the same goes for you. You have to be willing to show YOUR good side.

[JustForToday]

mike, i thank your input.
i have to say though from my heart, that i never thought this could happen and never thought anything about them at all til they started acting like this

you think its a learning procedure, but since i dont think negative now, especially not since loa is the main hings in my life, do you think its possible that this something i attracted from the past which became now reality?

or could be a sign that i still have to work on my insecurities not to be loved and worth? cause i have that fear at some times still

i even wanted to break my diet, but thanks god, i didnt.
i always did it when i am depressed and its something where i punish myself.....

[onlyhappiness]

 crazysoul,
If you still do have some negative thoughts and doubts about your worth, it certainly could have something to do with your problems of late. So yes please continue to work on those areas.
And great job for sticking with your diet!! I as well used to be an emotional eater , and it's easy to slide back in that habit if you let yourself!
Positive vibes to you

[JustForToday]

THANKS SO MUCH-

now i get pretty sure, that the universe showed me, that i need to change about my thoughts of not deserving love, which i experienced since my birth, so its something deep underlying...... i should be grateful for showing me where i still need to grow.
that helps me alot.
any idea how i can work with it, beside pstec?

THANK YOU MIKE AND ONLYHAPPINESS FOR HELPING ME; IT MEANS ALOT TO ME.

i already feel a bit better, cause everything bad happening i take personal 

[MikeG]

I get what you`re saying. I believe that these PET`s are always being attracted and if youre feeling down then "bad" people will come to you. But it`s just a point of view. Everything has good and bad aspects. Focus on the good. Crazy you have an amazing attitude. Do NOT lose it.

If you think it has to do with self worth issues then affirm the opposite. "People are lucky to see me and have me in their lives!"

I just came from a personal downfall, but am getting back up and if I can do it, so can you! Stay strong!

[JustForToday]

I WILL STAY STRONG; I AM A FIGHTER

and since i am really not thinking bad about people i am sure it comes from myself , lying in my subconcsious, cause it had always been following my whole life, you get what you think (what you deserve)
I AM GOING TO CHANGE THAT IMMEDIATELY:

how can i change my subconsciuos olde and wrong beliefs though- i am going to do some pstect rounds, but is there another possibility?

i fact, today i asked archangel michael to protect me from such negative experiences.

[JustForToday]

just got the idea that this is something for my magic book and box

[truelove]

Hey CrazySoul. Sorry you have been going through such a hard time 
I don't have any definite answers but only can suggest what might be happening..
One thought, as Mike said, it could be a learning experience. We are all here to evolve and grow. We all teach each other to do that through interacting with each other. (I have been told that the Universe does not see it as good experiences or bad experiences- just experiences) We are the ones who label them good or bad, wanted or not wanted. But from every experience there is the exact opposite happening at the same time, this is the law of duality.. so for every loss there is something you will gain and vise versa. The trick is to figure out what you are gaining from this experience. Does it make you stronger? Does it show you your true self worth? (Which is immesurable by the way!!!  ) Maybe it is pushing you more towards your trust in LoA to change your situation. Which you can of course!!
Another thing I was thinking is that it's just residual manifestations. Maybe, if you have changed your whole life recently, which I know you have, some of these things are just the last few manifestations of your old thinking. If this is the case, I would give them no more power over you, just bless them for reminding you how far you have come and get on with manifesting a bright new future.

I hope this helps a bit. xxxx

[JustForToday]

thank you so much truelove for your concern

exactly what i thought---- a big reminder on changing my beliefs of my worthiness and as well the delayed manifestation from the past, where i thought the whole world, including the universe/god is against me......

thank you, i feel so much better now, you mean all alot to me

[truelove]

Yaaaaay! xxxx

[Queen Of Light]

I'm sorry to hear you've been going through this Crazysoul, but you're strong. THIS will mean NOTHING to you soon. You've done nothing wrong in any of these situations. These other people are the ones with the problems... NOT YOU. They seem to be attracting and living in negativity. You are so much better than them, and they know it! I know you will have happier days today and tomorrow. 

[Sweets]

Ahhh, my energy sis ((((HUGS)))) sorry you are going through this.  Sweetie, you do deserve to be loved, always have been, always will be.  We all believe it, but do you truly believe it? (i hope you screamed, "hell yeah!!!!!"  LOL)

Some people are miserable by nature and they will try to make everyone else around them miserable.  But that should not stop you from continuing on your path. Go forward with your goals..... We all have tests. I feel like sometimes these tests come at a time when we are near reaching a goal.  It's up to you to acknowledge that something negative is happening, let it go and keep on going......Don't worry about that lady at the 2nd job.  Trust and believe the universe always find a way to work things out.