Hello great person!
I am very sorry to hear that! I guess everyone has been to a more or less similar point in life where they did not see any hope and were just desperate about everything.
The mistake many people make is to manifest from a point of desperation
, and to think that all of it will show up. But IT WON'T SHOW UP. You can't manifest if you are not happy about manifesting.
I guess the first thing you really need to do is CLEAR YOURSELF
. By clearing I mean let go of the desperation, let go of the negative feelings no matter how hard it may seem. What helped me a lot is to meditate and go into nature. Find this one for example (the other videos of Leija Turunen are also worth watching, she's a bliss!)
Important is really that you are clearing everything within you. Clearing means HEALING
. If you have depressions, you are usually in a place within you that is not thankful, that sees all the negative things even if everything is just so beautiful. I feel cleaned when I feel peace, when I feel one with the world around me and am relaxed and by that ONE WITH SOURCE
. I feel cleaned when I know that everything about being happy comes within me, and when I am not searching for it somewhere in the outside world.
If you really want to change, you need to meditate, clear yourself and by that heal yourself, but you really NEED TO DO IT. You need to have a deep knowing within yourself that you are worthy of attracting whatever you want in your life, that you are worthy to be happy and that you think that you are that worthy that you really want to make strong commitments to yourself!
Important: Don't take any action, don't visualize, don't order anything before you are in that particular state of feeling! You need to feel good about yourself, heal yourself, forgive yourself. This might help you as well (meditation of St.Germain):
But please don't meditate or clear yourself half-hearted. You have to do that with all of your intention and all of your will. I know that you have that will if you really want to change something!
Only by clearing yourself, you can TRULY LOVE YOURSELF!
Now, when you are really cleared and when you did let go of all desperation, all negative feelings (if there are still some negative feelings, meditate and heal yourself until they are gone!
Make a list of all the things you are thankful
for (only things you can believe in). That may be things like: "I am alive", "I have a happy child", "I can see", "I can walk", "I can breathe", "I can cook" etc. etc...
This puts you from the peaceful state into a hopeful grateful place of mind.
Now, make a list with all the things you want to attract. It's fun
If you don't know what you want to attract, make a list of what you don't want to attract. Then turn all that stuff around into positive things!
Believe me: when you are truly clear and peaceful you will believe in them and attract all of them! So be careful what you wish for! You can even write a story about all of the things you want to attract. Write stories, paint pictures, sing songs, write a letter to the universe... about it. Visualize it, FEEL IT!!
And after you ordered whatever you wanted to order, whatever you want in your life, LET IT GO!
This song may help you:
The hardest part now is to really trust! TRUST TRUST TRUST!
Don't think: "Where is my order?", "Why is it taking so long?". It won't come if you think that. If you cannot trust, meditate again, or do things you really love. But stay HIGH, stay in the moment and on that high level of consciousness.
You may also do that by doing stuff you love: go into nature, sing, paint, play with your child. Do anything that makes you feel happy! Do anything that helps you let go!
You will see: Bit by bit every single order will show up in your life! Sometimes it might not be clear, but if something shows up in your life which seems to be somehow connected to something you ordered, follow it! Take action and see how it unfolds!
I hope I could help you and give you some hope. Here are the steps again in an overview:
* clear and heal yourself (let go of all negativity) --> love yourself
* give gratitude to yourself and life --> hope
* make a list of things you want in your life
* write letters, songs, poems, draw paintings of your list and by that FEEL IT and send it off to the universe
* BELIEVE, TRUST, LET GO!
* Stay high!
* See how everything shows up in your life
Best wishes and feel free to contact me,