I do have all these negative feelings.
You know after my break up with him, I stared seeing his wife in all the girls I used to meet.
and bcoz of this I could never become close or gud friends with girls also.
If I see a beautiful girl, the immediate thought which comes in my mind is: wow she is so beautiful.
She can have anything she wants in life.
Pankaj's wife will be also like this.
If I would have been this beautiful, may be he wouldn't have left me.
I don't know how to free myself all this.
Sometimes, This thought also comes in my mind.
THIS LIFE IS GONE NOW>
NEXT TIME WHEN I WILL BE BEAUTIFUL< I WILL GET SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE ME
I WILL BECOME MOTHER ALSO>
Please give me some suggestion how to free myself from all these feelings.