He's one smooth cat^hahahah
Oh you guys! Today he asked me for another picture and I was kind of drunk so I said ok (I dont like taking pictures of myself I have about 3 good ones that I use if needed). It was cloudy and windy outside, I was in a plain black long sleeve and my hair was a mess I had no make up on, my face was kind of flushed because I was buzzed and I took 3 pictures of myself and one of my dog and one of the sky and I sent them to him! Normally I would NOT take any picture without at least being dressed right or having my hair brushed. Let alone SEND them. I said to myself "I dont care what he thinks, this is me and if he cant like that then hes not the guy for me"
He replied with "Daaamn why are you so attractive! Youre too good to be true" and I was so shocked. I didnt even know what to say. I am so amazed at him and I feel so blessed and I cant believe this is happening I have never felt this way about anyone, ever. I am NOT perfect and I am NOT a supermodel and for me to have sent some of the bad pics in a drunken haze and him replying that... Well I am so speechless. He is the most beautiful man in the world. We havent even gone on our date yet and I already broke things off with the other guy.
I cant believe Im living this. God and the universe are smiling at me. I feel this crazy rush and warmth in my heart whenever I see a text from him or talk to him or look at his photo. Nothing compared to what hit me the FIRST time I saw him, that felt like lightning struck me.... You guys, if I had continued to be stuck on my ex I know this would never have happened. Im glad I realized my self worth and discovered what it means to love myself unconditionally.
Wow he just told me he will be back next week!!!!! I hope our date goes good and I hope he still finds me attractive, personality and looks. We have only seen eachother through pictures and thats never the same as seeing someone in person. Oh shit! Im nervous and kind of freaking out!
Whatever, Im just gonna continue on being appreciatve and grateful for the whole experience of whats happened so far. Im already fullfilled and blessed and thats all that matters. Im good. : ) Ill keep you all posted too.
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