worst day!!

[Sonal123]

hey everyone.i know this is going to be long but i really look forward to any help or advice because today has so far been the worst day in my life.
i was dating this guy amit for 4 yrs n we broke up 4 months back.
i knew i would try all i could to get him back but today i spoke to one of my old friend after years together and he happened to tell me that amit was two timing me.i confirmed this from his friends and its actually right.
i was being cheated on for all these 4 years and i was stupid enough to believe him.
i have my ca exams one month from now but i feel shattered and completely broken.
i really did not deserve any of this.everyone around kept telling me that he is not the one for me but i trusted him.
our parents were against us being together and even my friends.i did all i could for him.
he doesnt look good nor is he intelligent.i just fell in love with him because he was really sweet and good as a person.atleast that was what i thought about him till now.
i really want to move on.and find someone who deserves me.
he was two timing me and dating a girl who was really horny and wanted to be with him to fulfil her sexual desire.i cant believe he could be so.

i really want to start a new life.please help me!!
thank u..

[Vicki Christina]

When people become chronic cheaters, love addicts, and sex addicts they are playing out old hurtful messages and issues.   Meditate on his healing as well as yours and it may help you to forgive and release to move on.   It is possible he started to feel some guilt and decided to release you from his actions which were possibly bringing shame to his feelings.  It is hard to be in your shoes, but you will realize that for him it may very well be a much more difficult road in the end to reach healthy relationships which almost everyone desires ultimately.  Hugs, VC

[Sonal123]

thanks a lot.i dont want to hate him for this or have any negative feelings.like you said i should pray for his healing and even mine.today i had a conversation with one of my close friend and she said she is 100% sure he will get back to my life some day or the other when he realizes what he lost and that he was wrong.
i just want to be strong enough to tell him a no at that time because i dont want him to hurt me again the same way.
i hope some day these feelings of love subside and i become strong enough to tell him a no even if he asks me out though it was somethin i always wished for.
but until today i did not know he was cheating on me.
i just want to thank god that though late i got to know he is not d one for me.
i would also like to thank you and this forum 4 being such a great help.
i want to concentrate on my exams and i really want to pass and these exams r not easy.
i guess i should use LOA to attract the concentration and good results in these exams and work hard instead of wasting time thinking about him.because if i dont move on at the end it will be me who has lost good opportunities in my life crying and thinking about my past.

[DT]

Hey Sonal123 i happen to know about your ca exams.yes u must concentrate on them.its going to be difficult but you need to do it for yourself.d guy who put you thru this pain wud realise it v soon and come back to you.but you need to forgive him 4 his weakness.someday hes goin to be strong.you are a wonderful girl n deserve to be happy.all the best.bless you.

[Sonal123]

thanks DT.i am going to concentrate on my exams.its going to be difficult but its not impossible.i ll surely put all efforts to move on.i wish i am able to forgive him some day for all this he put me through.
i really wish that he changes his ways.he was a good person who just changed for the bad and i hope he gets back to what he was.i really wish hapiness in his life and my life too.

[lovely]

Hi Sonal123, firstly i wnt to congratulate u bcoz u hav taken a right decision to move on, concentrate on other aspects of life and u r determined to hav what u deserve n tht is a wonderful future..i dnt knw abt wht wil happen in future between u n ths guy..bt i think d most important thing is tht u sud lov urself..dnt think wht went wrong, instead lov urself for having all d good intention of loving n caring for some1, even if u didnt get vry good things in return..lov urself..really lov urself..be ur own friend..be ur own lover..i am nt talking abt pride..i am talking abt pure lov for urself....unconditional lov..when u can love a guy, when u can lov ur friends, why cant u lov urself?? stay happy my love..
                 
                                                                                    with lots of lov
                                                                                                 lovely

[Sonal123]

thanks lovely,i will try to make new friends ,spend more time with family and do things that i love to do and which make me happy.and like you said i should fall in love with myself.i am really grateful to all the people on this forum.i think i can make new gud friends here too.
it feels so good when u tel people how u feel and what your going through and you get such wonderful suggestions!!
thank u.