if someone doesn't have good intentions you should ignore them or pitty them, taking it personally is the worst thing you can do.
I only take things personally from people who are really close to me, who I care about and respect and even then I try to take responsibility for my feelings (sometimes I don't succeed, hey I am just a human!
Unfortunately, your situation proves how loa works, loa is not a wishing game, if that was the case we would all alreday have what we want.
We have to make an effort in feeling good every day until this becomes normal to us and a habbit.
You are in a very bad place and accordingly to that you just keep attracting more situations that will make you feel bad.
I follow your story with that girl and I really think you should follow with no contact rule, this isn't working for you and I can see why.
Trust me, I have been there recently, three weeks of no contact and I already feel better and my mind is more clear. Until you see all these evidence of her being happy with another man, receiving her messages about her happiness if you are not strong enough it will bring you down constantly.
You have to clear yourself of negative emotions, you are in a dark circle now, we have all been there at one point in our lives.
Sth keeps popping up in my head when I read your posts...
I am a follower of Abraham.... do you track their videos on youtube? They are really helpful... you are now sad and depressed and you can't just jump to happiness and bliss, it takes steps to get there.
Higher vibration of sadness is anger (according to Abraham) because anger means we are starting to realize that we DO have power and that what it is done to us is not right, so we rebel.
Maybe you should get angry first? And then SLOWLY go up toward the happiness.
I was very sad few weeks ago and when someone would tell me to just be happy, I would want to punch them. It's impossible when you are reallllly down.
But I have started to let go... and it feels sooo good!!!
It was VERY hard the first couple of days of no contact but I sticked to it, I wrote in my gratitude journal, I spoke to one very sweet and positive member (hi Marianna
), and I wrote letters to the person who I had trouble with.
Did you try to do that?
Writing her letters and telling her everything you wanted to but NOT sending them?
It's for taking those nasty emotions out of your system!
EFT is miraculous too, especially FAST EFT... try it, you have nothing to loose!
But what keeps telling me when I read your posts is that you are going in circles... go angry, go mad at her, at you, gain your power again, FORGIVE her, forgive yourself for bringing that situation to yourself. According to the loa we attract everything to ourselves... step by step and you will learn to TRULY appreciate this experience because it has tought you sth! But you CAN'T do it in one day, you have to take it easy, be gentle with yourself and stick to your decision.
I really hope you will find your peace, I know how much it hurts, but the proccess of getting over it doesn't have to last for years (as it did in my past), you don't have to suffer that long, it can take a month or two to get into higher vibration.
Being in contact with her is the worst thing you can do, it is like opening an old nasty wound all over again... it starts to heal you open it, it starts to heal and you take a knife and make it bigger...
I wish you all the best... but really... step by step... get angry, then take your responsibility, then write it all down, forgive, gain your power... but not all in few days...
Wish you everything the best! It won't last forever!