The Irony- Attracting my ex back

[purebliss]

I would say the end of June is when I really started on my journey of self-awareness, and conscious living.  I had been with my now ex-boyfriend for about 6 months, and the beginnings of our relationship were bliss :-)  He is in his early 40s, and I am in my mid 20s, but we have like spirits and a deep connection that is really incredible--almost overwhelming!

But during the time of our relationship I was not living as a conscious, spiritual person.  I had always been raised around spirituality, and karma, but about 2 years ago money and popularity became so important to me :-/  I was so focused on attainting material possessions, and hanging around materialistic people (something most 20 somethings go through).  I felt like I was attracting negative energy and situations in my life :-/ And he (my ex) began to feel it too.  He tried to pull me out of it but I resisted.  We started to argue daily, and to make a long story short I treated him like crap!  Shouted him down, accused him, refused to hangout with him, our connection really fell off...

Then he had to leave the country for business for a few weeks and came back with a new attitude... that the relationship was too stressful and he no longer thought we were compatible!  The ironic thing is that during his time away I became more spiritual, let go of all negative energy, baggage, friends, and reconnected with loved ones, read The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, Feel It Real, started meditating, felt the love of the universe.  I just knew that when he returned we would reconnect and have the best relationship ever.  I felt so vibrationally high, so energized, so LOVING!  It was amazing.

Then out of the blue, right before he arrived I had a dream that we broke up.  Did not know why at the time, but I now know that it was my intuition revealing a forthcoming event.  So he gets back and we break up and I am devastated!  He tells me he loves me, and is still in love with me, but that he needs time alone because he didn't expect our relationship to turn out like this.  He says I became a different person, and that this isn't the girl he fell in love with. 

Of course I want him back.  I HAVE changed and I want the opportunity to show him this.  But right now he says he's hurting and needs space.  So a few days ago I sent him a text saying I "yes we both need space", etc.  He called me and told me he loves me, that this isn't easy, but that while he was away he had time to think and this is what his soul needs.  He said he misses me like crazy but he can't imagine being in a relationship with me right now :-/  (He is also a little stubborn lol)

I feel this man is my soulmate but that timing is off... I want to start attracting him back so I've stopped calling, texting, and I know in a few days he will call.  I am now working on myself again, becoming centered, getting enough rest, and giving love everyday.  I sometimes sleep in his old t-shirts and visualize him coming back to me starting a new loving relationship.  I've started online dating, but nothing serious and working on my beauty inside and out.  We have mutual friends so I know I will see him in a few weeks... at a party probably.  I want to look beautiful and radiate love and maybe we have a chance for reconciliation

Thanks for reading my story!! I know it's long.  I hope I am doing the right things to attract my ex again because I feel that I am.  What do you think?

Thanks!!

[Andrew Wilkie]

Age isn't important but you bring it up? Ergo, you or others around you do and you're worried about there response. Therefore it is important to you.

There is absolutely nothing with focusing on the money. Your emotive beliefs are sometimes yours, but more often than not the beliefs of your parents, school, religion, media etc. When did you decide it was wrong to focus on money? You're playing out a classic belief for many people. I can't be spiritual and be rich. This is total B.S. Have you seen how rich the church is? When some disaster happens, what is the first things everybody clamours after? Money. Enough said.

He's playing out his own emotional responses to your behaviour.  You're both hurting. Feelings that you once felt have been taken away from you both.  That is what you're wanting to get back.

Focus on the good things you like about him and your relationship. Not his behaviour. i.e. stubborn. Sarcasm doesn't go down well.

If you know in a few days he'll call you. Why are you worrying?  You're doing the best thing. Focus on you and your own emotions. 

At this party you're going to, what is the end result you want? What if it doesn't happen? What if for ever reason he doesn't make it or turn up? Is the party ruined? NO. Don't make you and him getting back together a condition of having a good party.

[purebliss]

Thanks for your reply!  It's not that I don't like money, it's that making it my focus did me no good because I always felt like it was something I needed instead of feeling the wealth that I had.  And during this time I never received any money from my ventures!  I was trying to hard lol.  I appreciate your thoughts on our relationship.  I will continue to focus on myself and the love I have for him