Signs from the universe stories!

[bravelioness]

Thanks schenderson22 for your reply.I'm not asking for any sign but I had dreams about me chasing Andrew stealthily even if I'm not doing it anymore.What could this mean?

Anyone is free to comment on this.I hope it not a bad sign that I'll always be in that state.

[loveofabundance]

@bravelioness, I think it means that you are finally aware of how counterproductive that kind of behavior is and how you're starting to let go of the need to follow him.  This is good!

[judasentinel]

I didnt want to publicly post this up here, but on second thought, have decided to.

Last night, I heeded the advice of a dear friend and tried to reach out to my beloved Rosie by activating my heart chakra. Seemed that all I could do is think about her and I got mixed feelings of love and hurt. I simply couldnt get through.

In that process, I just ended up falling asleep, while some heavy metal music was playing in the background (yes, I listen to it), only to be woken up by a nightmarish feeling of someone being in my room and choking me. I couldn't breathe, couldnt even move. I tried to scream, but couldnt. And then I could feel my whole body being lifted up in the air on one side (I sleep on my side). That was freaky. Medical science says it is sleep paralysis.

Dont know what it was. I still also do not know what those two signs that I posted above, mean.

[LeyLine]

astral projection??? damn if u had one ur lucky lol....i have tried and tried to have one, but i always cower at the last minute

[judasentinel]

Im not sure if it was astral projection, although I have had OBEs before, especially during the most intimate moments with my partners.

The thing is that sleep paralysis is a very real medical phenomenon, usually as a result of lack of sleep and/or stress. And the last time I had this feeling was many moons ago. I dont cower at it, since Im aware that its nothing to be afraid of, but when it happens, trust me, it is the worst kind of feeling - a sense of being consumed by evil. Yet, I dont know if I should believe in evil in the colloquial sense.

I am still wondering if the signs I posted up above have any relevance at all, and if so, what it is.

[LeyLine]

When we say let go of someone, that doesnt mean letting of ur love or ur desire for that someone....its simply means let go of the negativity that this someone brings in your soul. Let go of the hurt, the neediness the pain. The way i see it, theres only one way to let go..and this is to believe that the universe will grant ur wish anyway.

How can u subconciously forgive Rosie...its easy...u wont need more than 20 years of therapy (joking). Working with subconcious is always harder than working with the concious...and it plays a major part in manifestations. What i did in order to forgive was to keep reminding to myself that my ex came from a totally different background...that he came from a different culture...that he had his own issues to work on. Since i  wasnt with him since the day he was born, i couldnt possibly know what led him to act like he did. People tend to judge everyone based on THEIR experiences and personality...and thats wrong. I believe that this is why ppl have such a hard time to forgive, because they expect everybody to behave like they do. Dont get me wrong, my ex was fully responsible for his actions...and by forgive him, that doesnt mean i will comply with everything. But i let go of the pain...i let go of desperation...i let go of that *WHY???* Why..? Because...Because they are different from us....because this is their way to stand up for themselves...because they think they do the right thing. There are 6 billion people on this earth, and that means 6 billion different little worlds. And if some times our world and theri world collide..well, what can u do...except accept and forgive

[judasentinel]

yeah you can rationalize all you want about WHY the other person did, like I do, knowing that she didnt know any better, that she did the best that she could do, etc.. All good and peachy....yet, the hurt lingers on. And I still want her back. I'm deeply hurt. Should I write to her and tell her that? Should I just send her an email again (at the cost of irking her that I am contacting her again with a big-ass long email as she hates reading emails at work, and thats the only one she has) and say that I forgive her?

I can let go if I forgive her and rise above the hurt. Because then it wouldnt matter, just like the last time when she left me and then I stayed focused on her for a year and she came back. The signs I am seeing, are they real signs or just wishful ones? And how do I know what they mean and what inspired action to take? If Im so not interested in having her back, then the signs must point me away from her. Confusion, confusion..........

[LeyLine]

Judas...nobody can take away your hurt...only you can. I understand your love...but its not love trhat hurts you. Its desperation, neediness...and selffishness....yes selfishness.

I have read posts of you saying *im good looking, smart, educated, i work out, i do all the right things* But, between the lines i read *Im every womans dream!! How DARE she leave me?? How DARE she prefer someone else over me?? Now i want her back!! i want her back to prove me that im truly as worthy as i think i am...because if rosie (rosie who drinks, rosie who is unstable, rosie who had a bad past) doesnt want me..then...im not worthy at all* Thats why ur obsessed Judas....not for her, but for u. What hurts u most is not the fact that she left u...its ur ego that suffers.

Boy, i can see myself in you!!! Some months ago i was like that exactly!!! i was like *im beatiful, my IQ is 140, then why this stoner boy from a poor background left me?? im like every mans dream!!* See what an egoist i was?? No wonder that i could manifest only curses and silence back then... But then i worked on myself..and got rid of my ego...and now only love remains, and that doesnt hurt at all, i can assure u:)


Both rosie, and my own ex, are here to teach us something...i took my lesson, and then my world started to shift....and soon it will be ur turn

[judasentinel]

I think I have regressed back to where I was before I met Rosie for the first time.

When I met her, I had gotten over all these ego issues. And it was that state of mind where I was truly myself that I attracted her and she came to me. I never even pursued her and she was the one who said that she had fallen in love with me and wanted to leave her abusive boyfriend. That was exactly 2 years ago.

And somewhere along the line, I lost that true sense of ME. I let my ego become bigger than my desire for love. I know and realize that. Perhaps that is why I was so attractive to most people around me - that carefree, loving sense of self. I need to reclaim it.

Any ideas as to how? I need a sign.......

[Detached&Allowing]

@bravelioness- I agree with loveofabundance.  I think this means you are starting to understand the significance of letting go.  You know deep down if you don't let go of the desperation, desire, need etc to be with Andrew, the chase will continue. 

@judasentinel- It's time to let go.  To ensure the workings of LOA you have to have blind faith that she will come back to you.  That means "no signs".  Just knowing.  Feeling good and confident that she will return.  Your behavior is obsessive which will only delay the process.  Bravelioness has struggled for many months with this concept and her subconscious, the link between her conscious and devine energy, is telling her to let go.

[loveofabundance]

@js, you have to truly grasp the concept that you, and you alone, create your reality.  I agree completely with 31 and schenderson.  Your seeming selfish and obsessive.  I know it's harsh but bear with us, if you will.

One of the reasons why bravelioness has made such tremendous progress is because she's a very strong person and able to take what she needs to grow from criticism.  Truly, lioness, I deeply admire how you have been so open to others' advice and opinions in the midst of such an emotional time for you.

Anyway, back to js, it is well within your power to see the positive as easily as the negative, so you may want to start retraining yourself to immediately switch a negative thought with a positive one.  In time, I believe that it will become a habit for you to think more positively.

The idea behind activating your heart chakra is to send and receive love.  to start, you just feel only love, joy, happiness, etc. while thinking about a specific person.  it doesn't have to a lover; it can be anyone.  We all could use more love in our lives.

Anyway, if you're really focused on loving the person, you will feel a wonderful feeling in your heart chakra and throughout your entire body.  It is a giving exercise.  There is no judgement.  All you are doing is reaching out with the part of you that is pure love to the the part of another that is pure love.  So, you will feel love flowing through you to that person.  Next, you will feel their love flowing towards and through you. 

The fact that you couldn't send Rosie pure love without bringing it back to focus on your own pain means, to me, that you shouldn't even be focusing on her at all right now.  You should be focusing on yourself and why you're beating yourself up just because someone else was mean to you.  Let it go!

I used to get upset when people were mean to me, but after my relationship with my former fiance, I actually chuckle at how pathetic it is for anyone to be mean.  Being mean is so unnecessary and it is always a reflection of the mean person and NEVER a reflection of the person that is being attacked.

I'll get into the sleep paralysis episode later.  I've experienced it myself, so I can certainly understand how it could be experienced as frightening.  luckily, I'd read about it before I experienced it and I can honestly say that i actually benefited from the two times it occurred in my life.

[judasentinel]

Dee, Ersie, schenderson, I completely agree with you all. Hell, I used to always be the one who would bring others up, show them the positive side of everything, I even did that for Rosie, gave her knowledge, encouragement, support and intense, passionate love every second of my life. I was the  one everyone would look to for inspiration and ideas as to how to turn something negative into positive. Even she would always look to me for positives in every negative situation. I was always there to bail her out, and I swear I bailed her out of some very very nasty and life-threatening situations through sheer positivity and empowering actions.

Something changed in me in the last one year. I can hazard a guess as to what happened. I believe that during my intense self reflection over the last year, I figured that I had invested my whole being in every way, into this one girl, this one person at the expense of everything else. I over-compensated for my misgivings and shortcomings in all other areas of my life. And when I was greeted by failure and rejection in response to every single act of kindness by the very person who I had invested my life for, I became negative about my prospects about her. I was too much for her to handle.

My life otherwise is on the upswing - career, physical health and all other relationships - I have people around me who all love me dearly. No other piece of my life is out of place, except this one thing. I am not a negative person by nature (no one is), but I have the ability to rise above all adversity in every other area and I usually come out laughing.

Its just this area where I am yet to find bliss. When I started with Rosie, I thought I had it made. I really really had it made. But somewhere inside, I think I didnt believe it and so brought it upon myself. My friendship with her was the boon of my life. She was everything I had ever wished for in my partner, and then some, until she changed her mind.

But, all is not lost.......it never is until I give up. And I am NEVER giving up. I have never given up on love and am not about to do it this time either. I just need to get over this negativity about her and about my own power. I CAN BRING HER BACK!! I WILL!! I AM BRINGING HER BACK, inch by inch....

Give me encouragement and support. Tell me I am not alone.

One more thing - I think I have gotten the best sign that I could receive at this stage in my life about what to focus on, in the form of such enthusiastic encouragement from you all - I HAVE TO FOCUS ON ME. ROSIE IS JUST FOLLOWING A FEW STEPS BEHIND...........GOD I LOVE HER!!

[Detached&Allowing]

You are not alone. Take the advice given and you will get her back.

[loveofabundance]

@js, maintain this mood for 24 hours, at least!   Seriously, any negative thoughts, wave bye bye and focus on whatever makes you feel GOOD!

[57angel]

JS, I know that you will get her back, just give a little time for you and her to become a better person for a more fulfilling, happy and rewarding relationship and marriage in the future