Im 100% there, but now Im SCARED.

[lise]

yeehaw indeed Christy. Don't be nervous just be your fabulous self and it will all go marvellously. Be confident, hold your head up and remember all you know and feel. Remember on another thread you mentioned someone's user name and how it reminded you of them? and i suggested it could be a sign he's getting closer? Good aren't I? lol You've come so far - just feel how much better things can get from here on in. Have an amazing day.

[lise]

P.S mega excited for you.

[boomergirl]

Christy,
Very excited for you.  You are amazing!!  Keep us posted on your progress!!!

[Christy Michelle]

News!! GREAT news!!

So yesterday i went to the skateplaza opening and contest. I went alone, and D and K (girl) were there. Im like 8 pounds lighter, so I was feeling very comfortable and pretty. D was judging the contest, but at a break he went over where i was and gave me this big big hug!! He hug (hugged?) me at the center of the skatepark and all our friends started yelling and clapping hahahh just like when the boyfriends ask "will u marry me?" at a baseball game in movies hahaha!! It felt AWESOME!! K was there too!!! She saw it all 

After that we hangued out during the whole day and i stayed at his house after it!! He was ssssoooooooo sweet!!!!!!! He couldnt stop huging and kissing me, he told me he wanted to do things right this time, that we should get an apartment together, and to stay with him forever haha. He is like, you're my girl, you're the girl of my life, aawww! He is SO different!! We talked A LOT and he even cried saying he misses and loves me so much... He said he wants me to include him in my family, and to tell mom Im HIS girlfriend. He was like, your mine, Tina, please dont you ever abandon me again, no matter what i say! I never wanted you to leave..he says. I told him he HAS to compromise with me on treating me as his GIRLFRIEND and giving me respect and stuff and he was like yes yes baby, i dont wanna lose u ever again. Aaawww! 

We were at another skateboard contest today. Everyone was like, HEY Chris!! Where have you been, girl??? Welcome back!! (cuz I stayed out of the skateboarding scene for the whole 3 months). We had the greatest time today and yesterday, and he keeps on telling me, oh girl I love you so much, I want to do things right, I want you in my life forever. His grandma lives near by and today we went to her house to say hi, and she started crying and told me, Chris, I love you girl! But Im kinda mad at you because you're now back with this idiot that treated you bad and I dont want to see you cry anymore, haha, and D told her, grandma, I want to be a boyfriend now, I looked for her so Im staying nice to her. Aaaawww! I did not stay at his (our previously) house tonight, cuz i wanna talk to my mom first, but so long, so good.

Guess hows back!! I did not only attracted him back, but I attracted a FULL different D and relationship!!!! Im extremely happy and THANKFUL for this new opportunity with this new D on this new relationship...Love cant express it...Thank you all for your loving support, lets keep on creating a magnificent life!

[bravelioness]

That's nice Christy.Can you share what exactly you did to get there & how long did it take you to have your wish?

[Believing Love]

Christy

I am so so so happy for you ! :-)

[angel_star]

@Christy 

[lise]

Wow That's fantastic Christy, so happy for you. He's obviously realised how lucky he is to have you. Well done you.

[Christy Michelle]

That's nice Christy.Can you share what exactly you did to get there & how long did it take you to have your wish?

Thank you all!! I cannot tell you how happy I am, and how amazed I am of they way he has changed (until now...no! thats a limiting believe! i will try my best to keep on having possitive thoughts about him and our NEW relationship!)

Well, bravelioness, in terms of time, we broke up on Dec. 21, 2010. Jan 14 was our LAST communication until March 9 and in March 19 we came back together. So it was 3 months of separation, and 2 months of NO CONTACT. I mean, ZERO contact! I deactivated my facebook account, didnt call him, didnt go to places I knew he would go, NO NOTHING. Then on March 9 I logged in to my FB and he started communicating with me and ten days later we were together!!

But...in terms of WHAT I did...Im still having trouble with this whole LOA thing. I know there are things so amazing you cant call them "coincidences", but believing they happen because of something you thought/felt...meh. But, you can say that I did it all and at the same time did nothing. I tried to visualized, accomplished it a few times. I read A LOT, that was useful. I heard infinite Abraham Hicks clips on youtube, they distracted me and gave me so much possitive energy! I listened to brain waves, had a few cool dreams. I went to a psychic, it was a weird/cool experience. But I think the best thing I did was leaving him alone. I like the loa theory and Im learning so much, but meanwhile we 'master' it, we cant forget about obvious human nature characteristics. In fact, he was telling me, "why did you go away!?? i didnt want you out of my life!", but the fact that I left him alone was the clue in all of this. Our relationship needed a break. He told me he was sick of it and me (the way I was at that time), so giving him time was the best thing I could ever do. Remember, guys think different.

If you mix all of that (loa with psychology), you can actually take advantage of the magic of life and do an explosive combination! I think I nailed it when I changed my game plan to the LOVE plan. I started feeling so happy inside, knowing everything is GREAT in my life (this was like a week before we started to talk again) so I guess LOVE is the most powerful force of all. Be thankful, trust, believe and FEEL love and joy and I think life will eventually gift you with the very loving life that you deserve; is yours!

My best wishes to all!
(The Power book was a great inspiration tool).
 

[Christy Michelle]

Hmmm I just realized something. I was VERY skeptic on believing the Law of Attraction, because I thought it was definitely IMPOSSIBLE to get back with my guy, so, I wanted to have doubts about LOA just in case we didnt get together again it didnt make me very sad. But now that we are together again (im not sure if thanks to loa or what hehe), now I can dare experimenting with manifesting other things!! Things I dont have attachments to, like, I dont know, going somewhere, having something, getting money...I think I will play HARD now on testing the law of attraction!! I have had many many cool instant thing manifesting on my life, but they are simple things that can be said they happened because of friendship, telepathy, suggestion, wishful thinking, whatever... Damn! why is so hard to believe in this? hahaha i think i believe more in "magic".

I'll keep you updated on what happens from now on! 

[LOVE_is_mine]

Wow that is so amazing! I'm very happy for you 
Somehow, I knew things would work out between you too. This is very inspirational for
us all.

[Detached&Allowing]

I'm not sure why this isn't proof enough.  You attracted something (one) that is close to your heart.  One of the hardest things to do.  Why would you still doubt and test it?  Why not embrace it?  The world is your oyster!

[Christy Michelle]

Hi my friends. So, heres what has happen on the last days/weeks. Du and I are doing great. He is very very sweet with me, so different that now Im scared. Im scared of him not falling in love with me, or viceversa. Im scared of we breaking up again. Hes being so nice with me, that I dont even know if thats really him or hes just acting. I dont want things to be forced, and I feel pretty confident about his feelings towards me, when we are together, but theres a thing...you see, when we are on facebook, he acts like the old Du. I KNOW this is a stupidity, but his behavior on fb makes me feel so insecure. He "likes" everyone status and barely mines. He is not a man of many words, so i dont expect him to write me inboxes and stuff, but he occassionally "smile" at me or my pics, and we even are "in a relationship" with each other, but theres SOMETHING that makes me feel so insecure... Like im always trying to get his attention (both in real life and in fb) and i know he doesnt like that. That makes me feel dumb cuz im such a (kids mind) ((infantile??)) woman...im very easy going and fun and nerdy and i really love to act stupid/silly...he likes it, but i know he prefer other type of women, like women with more power/strenght and it shows on his fb behavior. I really want to act like a woman of my age (28) but his merely presence confuses me because I want to get his attention and to make him feel fun, so when i try to be more mature i get confused and nervous (realllllly nervous!!) and i just want to cry. I dont know how to be, around him, and i know i gotta be myself, but the truth is that i dnt even know how am I anymore...im just to scared to lose him again but more than that, im really afraid of loving again. Yes, thats it. I want so much to fall in love, and to have someone to love me back, and now that things are going BEAUTIFULLY with Du, im afraid to get hurt again or worst, to not being able to have a DEEP loving relationship.

Any words will be appreciated, im feeling very very emotional these days...

[lise]

Keep off fb for a start! What's the point of it if it makes you feel insecure.

As for him prefering a different type of woman - maybe generally he does - but you're the exception and he's chosen to be with you! Don't doubt yourself.

The guy I'm in love with - I wouldn't say I have a type but height/ colouring etc - nothing like what I usually find attractive. He has some hobbies that or years I've gone what is the point of them. He is like the opposite in everyway - but there's just something about him.

So if your fella does normally have a particular type then that type doesn't hold a candle to you as it's you he wants to be with. As for the fb liking thing - maybe he just doesn't want to be want to be one o those boyfriends who is liking everything his girlfriend does every five mins.

You attracted him back - you've done the hardest part and you attracted back a dif type of relationship. Now's the time to enjoy it - without shifting all the focus on to him - what he wants/thinks etc. Just keep being the happy you. x

[Detached&Allowing]

Hi my friends. So, heres what has happen on the last days/weeks. Du and I are doing great.

This is great Christy!!

He is very very sweet with me, so different that now Im scared. Im scared of him not falling in love with me, or viceversa. Im scared of we breaking up again. Hes being so nice with me, that I dont even know if thats really him or hes just acting. I dont want things to be forced, and I feel pretty confident about his feelings towards me, when we are together,

  You are pretty good at understanding how LOA works.  By giving the negative feelings that I highlighted any type of energy, you will attract it.

but theres a thing...you see, when we are on facebook, he acts like the old Du. I KNOW this is a stupidity, but his behavior on fb makes me feel so insecure.

No, your own insecurities are what make you feel insecure.  Feeling secure in your relationship comes from within you.  It doesn't matter how perfect he acts, you find something to be insecure about.

He "likes" everyone status and barely mines. He is not a man of many words,

by "liking" a status he is communicating.  You just said "he is not a many of many words"

so i dont expect him to write me inboxes and stuff, but he occassionally "smile" at me or my pics, and we even are "in a relationship" with each other,

So this is evidence that he is with you and cares about you.  Be grateful and stop letting your insecurities take over.

but theres SOMETHING that makes me feel so insecure... Like im always trying to get his attention (both in real life and in fb) and i know he doesnt like that.

Once again, this comes from within you.

That makes me feel dumb cuz im such a (kids mind) ((infantile??)) woman...im very easy going and fun and nerdy and i really love to act stupid/silly...he likes it, but i know he prefer other type of women, like women with more power/strenght and it shows on his fb behavior.

  Here's the thing, you "think" that is what he wants.  If that were the case, he wouldn't be with you.  In many cases, people have this idea of what they want, then they get it and it is very intimidating.  Maybe he had time to realize that a powerful woman would eat him alive and make him feel insecure so he found that your traits are much more attractive and compatible.

I really want to act like a woman of my age (28) but his merely presence confuses me because I want to get his attention and to make him feel fun, so when i try to be more mature i get confused and nervous (realllllly nervous!!) and i just want to cry.

  LOA is about doing things that make you feel good. Why are you trying to be someone you are not and doing something that doesn't make you feel good.  If anything it will drive him away.

I dont know how to be, around him, and i know i gotta be myself, but the truth is that i dnt even know how am I anymore..

.  No offense but this a load of crap.  You attracted him by being you.  You attracted him by focusing on the things that made you happy.  Keep being you.  Otherwise you will lose him.

im just to scared to lose him again but more than that, im really afraid of loving again.

  Jere we go again with the negative.....

Yes, thats it. I want so much to fall in love, and to have someone to love me back, and now that things are going BEAUTIFULLY with Du, im afraid to get hurt again or worst, to not being able to have a DEEP loving relationship.

  Then allow it to happen.  You are in control.  Be grateful for your relationship with him.  Be grateful for all his positive actions and acknowledgements on fb.  Be grateful that he is attracted to someone as quirky as you.  Be grateful for the present.  Live for today!   

Lots of love!!!

Any words will be appreciated, im feeling very very emotional these days