Author Topic: Im 100% there, but now Im SCARED. (Read 7004 times)

Christy Michelle · « **Reply #15 on:** March 16, 2011, 04:38:33 AM »

I cant believe how lovely and kind you all have been to me. Yes, I freaked out this morning, but then went to the beach and feel a little bit better, but still with a LOT of doubts and pain. I know for a FACT that the girl is visiting him (and she lives an hour away) and that he is staying at her house on the weekends. I also KNOW that she is a dumb girl and Im so much mature than her, but maybe thats what guys like! Now Im really concerned about HER, cuz she is going to his house and even if he wanted me back, she is going to confuse him into staying wih her, being "cute" and playful and woohooo the best friend ever!! (im being bitchy and sarcastic). He is coming to my town this weekend and probably spend time with her, and cant get my mind out of that thought!!! I know that if i do something, anything, he may get more far away from me for being a "psycko" or beign after him (I am NOT, I've on my little cave for THREE months!), but I also think that if I dont anything, he may keep on dating her and liking her even more. So what should I do!!! Cant get my mind straight.

Oh, I wanted to add something. Im thinking that he may be thinking/feeling like relief after he talked with me. Cant express well what Im trying to say...ok, that now that he told me how he felt, that now he is in peace and he may feel diferent towards me and may not miss me or feel like he loves me that much anymore because he already told me so. I know is a TERRIBLE way of thinking and im sabotaging myself, but! I really need reinforcement.

i just wanna kill that girl...

(j/k)

boomergirl · « **Reply #16 on:** March 16, 2011, 06:06:02 AM »

Christy Michelle, I think you are doing awesome! Very inspiring!!

Believing Love · « **Reply #17 on:** March 16, 2011, 06:06:57 AM »

Christy ...

Why you are you worry what is going at this very moment with him and that girl?
While you have create a beautiful life,a beautiful relation with him at your happy state / your vortex.
As we know,LOA teach us to not worrying about the HOW
You just think about the end results and universe will figure out the way to manifest it
I understand that you are worrying about the other girl
But this thing wouldn't happen if you didn't check or stalk on him,true?
You will enjoying your victory knowing LOA have work on you..
This is not over yet,that girl may woo him,may throw her self to him
But remember,he is the main role guy in your play..
You have imagine him to be the lead actor..why don't we just stick to that?
Believing that no matter what he will be yours...
You've done a great job to get to this point,christy...don't throw it away with your doubts
Hope you will be fine in no time :-)

Vicki Christina · « **Reply #18 on:** March 16, 2011, 06:41:10 AM »

Hi, Christy. You are doing so well so keep that 95% working for you. Also, send the other girl away with loving thoughts of her finding a new wonderful relationship of her own!!! Better positive energy. :-D

57angel · « **Reply #19 on:** March 16, 2011, 06:41:46 AM »

Christy, you have gone this far and why let the girl affect you in any way? Remember, it is only you and your boyfriend that matters, the girl getting on the way between you and him will only give him the clarity what he will be missing if he will let you go. Relax, do the things that you love and always do things to make you feel good, you have five point lead (if we look at it in a basketball game lol) over her. As you said, you are mature than her, and you are so confident for you really are, then nothing to worry. Don't let anything or anyone come out of your way, take out the fears and doubts in you - fast!

Detached&Allowing · « **Reply #20 on:** March 16, 2011, 07:59:57 AM »

I cant believe how lovely and kind you all have been to me. Yes, I freaked out this morning, but then went to the beach and feel a little bit better, but still with a LOT of doubts and pain. Do what you have to work through this pain. EFT is a great start. Also, the saying goes "Change your thoughts and your emotions will follow."

I know for a FACT that the girl is visiting him (and she lives an hour away) and that he is staying at her house on the weekends. I also KNOW that she is a dumb girl and Im so much mature than her, but maybe thats what guys like! Here is the thing, which I know you already know. WE DO NOT control HOW things happen. You have asked to get him back. There may be things that need to happen in order to bring him back to you. It is not for us to judge. Make sense?

Now Im really concerned about HER, cuz she is going to his house and even if he wanted me back, she is going to confuse him into staying wih her, being "cute" and playful and woohooo the best friend ever!! (im being bitchy and sarcastic). He is coming to my town this weekend and probably spend time with her, and cant get my mind out of that thought!!!

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that now that he told me how he felt

The Universe is trying to give you what you want but you are causing things to go arye with your insecurities.[/color]

I know that if i do something, anything, he may get more far away from me for being a "psycko" or beign after him This is VERY correct (I am NOT, I've on my little cave for THREE months!), but I also think that if I dont anything, he may keep on dating her and liking her even more. So what should I do!!! Cant get my mind straight. Physically, you cannot do anything. You can only use your gratitude journal, mediation and affirmations to get what you want.

Oh, I wanted to add something. Im thinking that he may be thinking/feeling like relief after he talked with me. Why would you even speculate? Cant express well what Im trying to say...ok, that now that he told me how he felt, that now he is in peace and he may feel diferent towards me and may not miss me or feel like he loves me that much anymore because he already told me so. I know is a TERRIBLE way of thinking and im sabotaging myself, but!This way of thinking is definitely self-sabotage. Once again, the Universe is trying to give you what you want be you aren't allowing it to do so. The question is WHY? I really need reinforcement.

i just wanna kill that girl.. You may want to consider working on your own insecurities.

Lots of love and Best of LOA to you!

Christy Michelle · « **Reply #21 on:** March 16, 2011, 09:26:52 AM »

Woa, THANK you so much for the attention and help!!! You really are an amazing group!! I have to agree with everything you all said. Vicky, I LOVED the idea of thinking good for the other girl and thinking her to get her own ideal guy, thats a great turnover.

So, this is the never ending story. Today he sent me another message (I have not begin any of the communications), saying hi. We chatted and after a while, he told me he was working today and thought of me all day

So I asked him why and what is thinking about, that I didnt understand. He asked me what I didnt understand and I said that why is he telling me he misses me and stuff if he is still seeing that girl, that while he keeps seeing her, he wont be clear on what he wants or about his sentiments toward me and that made me scared of losing him. And then he told me... if you are scared why do you try taking me back? You're not doing anything to have me back!!

Can you believe it? Guys are jerks. He left me and now Im suppose to do something to have him back...but on the other side, that shows me that he wants to get back into the relationship...he also told me that he is friends with her because they have a nice time together, that what di i want? Him to stop talking to her? (thats what he asked...)

Havent answered. Confused with this mind game...

57angel · « **Reply #22 on:** March 16, 2011, 11:19:27 AM »

Quote from: Christy Michelle on March 16, 2011, 09:26:52 AM

Woa, THANK you so much for the attention and help!!! You really are an amazing group!! I have to agree with everything you all said. Vicky, I LOVED the idea of thinking good for the other girl and thinking her to get her own ideal guy, thats a great turnover. When we wish the best and pray for everyone who hurt us in any way, we are doing ourselves a great favor, for it will be a good start for us to move on

Can you believe it? Guys are jerks. He left me and now Im suppose to do something to have him back...but on the other side, that shows me that he wants to get back into the relationship...he also told me that he is friends with her because they have a nice time together, that what di i want? Him to stop talking to her? (thats what he asked...)If you think guys are jerks, remember thoughts become things and it will be part of our manifestations hehehe the fact that he wants to get back into the relationship is something that you should be grateful for Christy. It isn't a good idea for you to say Yes, you want him to stop talking to her, that is a sign of insecurity. Let him know how confident you are and that whoever wins your heart is truly blessed to have you in his life. Let him do everything he wants, as you are also enjoying each and everything that you do, with or without him! Being in this girl will only make him with more clarity, what is it that he wants in a woman, and what is it that he doesn't, which is, for your favor wink! Stay positive, you attracted him back with your being positive, the more now that you should be very positive that he is back in your life. More colorful and loving days ahead for you and your boyfriend, in a very loving relationship

Christy Michelle · « **Reply #23 on:** March 16, 2011, 03:31:07 PM »

I LOVE YOU!!!!! Many many thanks, uff, what a great way to start my day!!!! Feeling great right now! (and confident!). Yesternite I answered his question, so Ill let you know what he thinks. Hopefully it will be the answer Im wishing for! I will have my LOVE power full power today hahah! THANKS!

belive88 · « **Reply #24 on:** March 16, 2011, 06:48:35 PM »

chritsy this IS fantastastic progresss!!! im sooo very happpy for you!!!! keep doing what you're doing!! i sometimes need a reminder my self! since i have similar thoughts to the ones your having by over analyzinggg! and bringing negativity in after such god progress.! stay positive!

Christy Michelle · « **Reply #25 on:** March 16, 2011, 08:37:46 PM »

Thank you so much! Me myself also read a LOT of ur topics and advices. All your sucess stories inspire me very very much, so Im forever thankful of your patience and lovely vibes towards everybody in this forum.

So, I told my guy that it wasnt fair of him to tell me I wasnt doing something to have him back, cuz he was the one who left me and he is also seeing someone. That i was available to meet him and begin talking and seeing each other over time, calmly, little by little and he said that i was 100% correct and that he loves me

(smilie by him)

So, to tell you the "technical details",

this morning I was reading a bit of The Power, and oh my! That book puts me in such a loving state!! I actually closed my eyes between pages and visualize a BETTER D, loving him and him loving me back, having the greatest of times traveling and just feeling LOVE in my heart. Im really good with the feeling love!!!!

A tip for all: if your having trouble visualizing, try reading something inspiring and THEN feel LOVE deep into your heart. I actually felt like crying of emotion and it was so easy to imagine us having a great relationship!! I could "visualize" (think, imagine, tell a story) for many minutes and while telling myself that, i was just feeling a deep sense of love. I also tried to feel positive about the girl, that she was happy with someone else but could not spend a lot of time on her ahahah.

A few minutes later he answered me telling me that i was correct and <3. E hasnt said yet "LETS GET TOGETHER, wooohooo!" hahaha but i will let universe do its work!!! Im so confident now! (still a little nervous in my heart but ill keep reading your soooo constructive and helping advice!).

I have no words on how much I thank you all. Ill keep posting!!

"Everything will be ok at the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end."

belive88 · « **Reply #26 on:** March 16, 2011, 09:04:52 PM »

Christy your story is an inspiration for many, you have come so far rom where you were

i just want to ask do u expect him to mail you and stuff, because this whole LOA is about not expecting them to do things right?

like keep checking your mails etc.

i will defo try sendin him loveeeee to further improve and progress what we have into a blooming happy healthy loving relationship

thank you for your wise words

dance_in_the_rain · « **Reply #27 on:** March 16, 2011, 10:28:35 PM »

woah, the twilight zone theme is playing in my head right now.

This is the exact pickle i was in, except the names have changed and i have not attracted him back yet.

The facebook message thing is exactly what happened to me, except when he accused me i just deleted that message, because i know i had nothing to do with it.

Me and him have not communicated since the middle of january.

I could easily replace all these replies people made to your post, replace your name with mine, and it would be the answer to my problems!!! Thank you so much for your inspirational story, and i truly hope with all my heart, that love will find a way to that other girl, for a different boyfriend.

<3 <3 Sending Love and positive thoughts <3 <3

Christy Michelle · « **Reply #28 on:** March 16, 2011, 11:48:01 PM »

Dance! That was beautiful!! Thanks for sending good vibes to that girl, everyone deserves someone how really loves them. Im glad you can relate to my story and is so nice that it helped you too. I guess human nature is very similar at the end

Believe, I couldnt understand very well your question (language issues). Can you rephrase it?