well the latest installment of me trying to attract a wonderful relationship with my ex partner (he moved out 3 weeks ago) Please see my previous posts for more details.
I have not heard from Tom since his letter a week and a half ago, i sent him a card which simply acknowledged his letter and then said i would write more fully soon and that i was thinking of him.
I have moved the furniture around in our bedroom and painted it and told everyone and myself that i have done this as a nice surprise for when tom comes back to me. I have kept his drawers as his with some of his belongings that he forgot.
I have been saying "when he comes back" and even bought him little gifts as i have seen them.
But i have had no contact with him since i received the letter back from him and although i can see this as positive as i know he did not have to write and certainly not say the nice things he said, i cant help but feel that i should have heard from him a little more.
A similar thing happened to us a year ago, my lovely man felt we werent working and against my wishes i mved from our home, but after 6 weeks we were back together and happy again.
I heard from him a lot more last time and this time there has been such limited contact.
I know i should feel grateful for the letter and i do-sort of. I also feel it isnt enough.
I am still not visualising us togther, this is something that just makes me feel the loss so intently and i dont know how to turn this around?
I am using gratitude but i know i am not generating enough love and positive energy for tom and i to move forwards.....