well..i been here for long but never post any topic yet
my ex bf dumped me 4 months ago becoz of some misunderstanding,he accused i make up story and quisling him which i didnt.he told me he is over my insecure.
i begging him for not leaving me but it just come out of pushing him futher far away from me
then i get a job at the pub he go after work,(well,honestly it was an accident,i dont meant to get da job,i applied da job ages ago but they hired me after we broke up)
when my ex's mate saw me,they told him and he txt me and asked me "why u get a job at the place i go after work"
then i said "i never knw u go there until i saw ur mate,oh well.now u need to find other place to hang then"
then he had no replied at all and he never talk to me anymore coz he thought i am a crazy stalker.
i tried to txt him couple times after break up but he never reply
he deleted me from facebook and just totally dissapear in my life
i am really upset becoz he was my first love love
then i start to google all the info about how to get ur ex back
so yea..i am here
i stop blaming myself,i let go the depression,i start meditation,start connect with my inner child,then i realize i never love myself,i love him too much and i am really scare of losing him b4,i kept asking him "are u gonna break up with me"while we are in relationship,(loooks,LOA is work on this as well,i kept manifest we gonna break up,thats why it happen)i am really really insecure,becoz i never find myself of who i am..
i start work out on myself ,going out with mates,have my new hobby,learning new skills..and yea..yesterday..i send him a facebook msg "hey how's ya life going on?just wondering are we still friend?thats no drama ,i just dont want to lose someone special in my life and tats it,but if u decide not to talk to me anymore,i will respect ur decision ,just let me know so i will not bother u anymore,take care urself and dont work too hard"
and guess wat!!!
he replied me!!!!!!
"hey cammy hows it going?
yeah life up here is awesome, the best thing i ever did.
i saw u at the airport the other day before i flied out i was gona say hello but u looked busy.
yeah we're still friends, im sure we'll always be.
we'll hav too catch up some time when i get back.
anyways ill see ya later

take it easy. "
i was so excited but i know i can't show my desperate
so i just send him back
"good to hear da,so happy for ya =D
oh really?i will say hi to u if i see u next time , haha
yea i been great,going 2 thailand in a week ,so excited ! can't wait XD
feel free to give me a buzz when u get back den
have a good one cya =) "
and he send back
"yeah awesome hope u have a good trip let us no how it goes cus im gona book flight to either thailand or bali for next month.
catcha "
but i am feeling uncomfy now..i dunno how to continue on this convo,i dont know wat can i say? i really wan to know who he is planning to go with and i really wan to go with him,and i really wan to know is he still single (well..his facebook status is single) i dont know should i play cool or reply him asking him about his life or ask him when we wanna catch up and stuff
i need some advice >.<