Not too sure of were Im at right now..

[Peaches97]

Im in kind of a different place lately and not sure what it means...ive done really good working on detachment, putting out good vibes and even met someone new although i still think of my former guy...I got kind of exhausted with affirmations etc...so i just think of my guy in loving ways sometimes and thats it and ive been feeling like i almost need to just accept things for as they are right now and just be happy and live my life.,and most days I feel really good and strong..it hasnt all been a bed of roses but im definetly better than I was 3 months ago...I sent my ex a text the other day for his bday and he didnt respond...which bothered me a little but knowing how he is and being the fact that we havent spoken in over to months he as prob a little suprised by it lol...I sent it more just as sending love...he still has some of my things too and I feel like its still so unfinished but the other part of me is like well it is what it is and I deserve to be happy too etc...I know he still cares about me and i feel that to my core but the nc thing really blows cause how does anything really get resolved that way i think u know?..I get u need time to reflect- anyway...I guess i still have a few doubts but not as many thats for sure...just not sure of were Im at am I detached or does it just feel that way sometimes? I dont want to give up but should i just give it all a rest? I guess thats hat letting go means.. I wish i knew what he was thinking!! haha im sure we all feel that way sometimes.. I am kinda tired of a lot of stuff right now too cause theres been so much happening in other areas of my life as well...anyway just wanted to share..love and blessings:) ...

[beautifulmesss12sc]

Peaches .. i know how you feel sometimes i jst feel like .. heck .. what am i putting my self thru this for? .. but when i really think abt it .. he is what i want .. the thing i have been doing is jst trying to feel  it ... i am like u sometimes i jst feel like i need a break from it all.. and thats prob not a bad thing .. u shouldnt force it if u r not doing it frm the right place i do and i can feel the difference.. its been going on 6 plus months now ... i am finally realizing i cannot control when or how .. and by thinking i needed to know what was going on with him (going to the place where id see him... driving by his house.. in other words torturing myself ) i am jst making it worse for myself..but i thought if i run into him he will see how good i look .. how well im doing .. all thats  not my job .. when he is ready he will find me .. he knws my number .. he WILL FInd me  its not effecting him he knows i want him back ,.. so its easy peasy for him.. i believe in expressing your feelings .. but i have done that so i know he knows and thats all i can do .. except the working on me part

[Peaches97]

yea beautifulmess u are right...we can only control oursleves and try to be at our best although it is difficult at times...i just think sometimes dont they miss us too geez!! u know they do...even if there is another person in their lives...I kno guys sometimes dont realize what they lost till way later..hindsight 20/20 u know?..but we have to not think about that stuff I guess...its just torture for us like u said...

[beautifulmesss12sc]

just want to add.. i think as we are working on ourselves .. getting better .. letting go .. at some point we will either move onto someone better and have learned a lesson .. or they will come back and we will have a  much better relationship.. waiting is hard .. desireing it so badly that everyday seems like an eternity... but we are moving forward .. everyday is another day in healing ..

[Peaches97]

You are right it is a journey for sure too and I always try to remeber that...right now im just focusing on us speaking again at some point in a friendly way...catching up etc...and desiring that...baby steps...and then see were it takes me...

[JustForToday]

peaches, give it and yourself a rest. dont foucs on him now...
 

[beautifulmesss12sc]

i wonder too if he misses me or thinks about me .. but he must he has contacted me a few times .. it has led nowhere yet but at least ive gotten something  to know im on his mind... i also sometimes wonder why he has not asked me to not contact him...if hes seeing someone else .. and hes haooy  id think hed say listen dont contact me i have moived on and its not appropriate...tells me he has no respect for the person he is seeing .. thats jst my opinion .. but i know if i was seeing someone id ask for him to respect that .. but men have such BIG egos.. so maybe he enjoys knowing he has mnore than one woman wanting him

[Peaches97]

Its all so confusing sometimes right!! Sometimes I wish I had all the answers:). Thanks crazy soul u r right I need to give it a rest I'm leaving town for a few days so maybe after I get back I will feel better..thanks for the love guys..

[jtut21]

It is natural to feel the way that you do. Mainly because you were emotionally involved with your ex. Moving into another relationship when perhaps there was some "unfinished business" with your ex is a big reason that you feel the way you do. With everything that you described it is clear that you are at the point of wanting to give up on some of the relationship stuff because you are trying to force the desire. Having a healthy and happy relationship is your natural state. When trying to force a healthy and happy relationship it feels less natural and more like work. Detachment is more than just letting go and not caring.

Detachment is more about not being attached to the means by which your desire will be delivered. Creating with the use of your affirmations is great unless the vibration you are in when creating is to make something happen when doing it. When thinking of detachment think of not caring how the desire is going to manifest. By trying to force the result you are after it is handcuffing the Universe from being able to use it's infinite means to bring you the desire you want to manifest.

Be Happy,

Josh
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