I'm new to this forum, so as this is my first post I would like to thank you all for all the thoughts, and that you've decided to share your experiences here. I must say It already helped me a lot. But now it's time to continue my trip with the LOA, and to move on.
The story of my life, and my ex... in a shortest form I could create
I came across The Secret movie about 2 years ago... after my first car accident... I knew there'll be another car journey, but as strongly as I could do.. I guess the LOA worked the other way around, at least for me.. after about 3,5 months had another car accident (after 12 years of not a single scratch driving).
Well, the stress over these events got me so much, I was afraid to drive again, but after some time I have manage to overcome my fear of driving. However I started to be so constantly worrying about my life and my safety (not only on the road), that I literally closed myself in my apartment and just sporadically had contacts with my clients in the town.
My long term relationship started suffering, but not only from this, there were a lot of different matters. So.. I broke up with the girl... we were 4,5 years together. I felt relieved and knew I can start a better life appreciating myself. I was at the peak of my happiness and all was great with work and all.
Until I met another girl... and we soon started to see each other. And though it was a long distance relationship (we live about an 1,5 hrs drive apart) it was working out quite well, as we both had our separate jobs and could spend weekends and few days in a week together.
We had our differences on life, but the one that especially caused the separation and break up was my fear of going out, dancing (though I like to dance), meeting with her friends.. more of me being a 'home' person than the more 'outgoing' one. But I know that this 'home' person is not truly myself. Well, now it's too late.
Besides the above, our feelings and emotions were really in a lovely state, almost to 1,5 week before we broke up. We never had a big fight... we just talked, until the moment, that we could not talk.
So, that was it... we were for about 3 months together.
And of course, I tried to convince her, begged for us to try together, saying that she did not recognised the 'full me'. With the result you all may know
It was going so for about two weeks, but still she would contact me as usually... txt and skype... until I finally broke down and said, that She is the love of my life, and that she should not contact me, because every little thing that she comes to me with, causes my heart to bleed even more. A Sort of No Contact policy. She said OK.
Well, I admitted, that I was behaving really emotional at that time, so I just msg her to say sorry for my strong words, and that I just need some time to get over it. She said OK.
But, not even a week passed, when she is contacting me again. However with me this time... with a little bit more of a 'not begging for her love and care' state.
Well... she still txts me with the cute names we used to call ourselves, but what I do is I just reply in a calm way.. not showing any of the signs that I was still in love with her.
The days pass... she txts me a week before christmas saying how am I... I'm saying ok, that I'm preparing for my family christmas... and how is she. She say's she's probably to be alone for christmas. The next day in the morning she writes out of the blue in msn, that she wishes my a good day and now she's leaving for job. I wish her the same. Later that day I call her up and in between our normal, friendly conversation I asked if I can come on the second day of christmas, so we can spend it together.. she says she'll thing about it and let me know.
Well, she wouldn't... so I called her up at the end of the first christmas day and ask If she want's to meet.. and in between we are having a conversation about how our xmas went and all of that stuff. Well, she says she don't think meeting is a good idea, so after few more sentences, we wish ourselves all the best and end the conversation.
Soooo... what happens then...? Now it's the LOA part
you all been waiting for...
I'm registering to the forum, reading all of your stories, trying to put myself in a LOA state to get her back somehow... I know, first things first... i need to let go of everything that connects me with that girl... So that happened yesterday, when again in the evening I was reading the forum, put some 'Positive feelings and Hypnotic state' sounds on my headphones and try to relax from all the heartbreak I have been over the last month... basically totally devastated, not sleeping, not eating, not nothing...
But I said to myself, hey... I need to be happy with myself... I don't need HER exactly to feel the same state of mind, It all lies in me and I have to work on it...
..So, with the relaxing sounds, calm mind and in a good mood from many many days I am implementing these things into life... I can feel it works out great... I am starting to be myself again... the good, happy person I always was. LOA please be with me.
Few hours pass.. I'm on the forum again... And I have a txt from HER... asking 'How was my Xmas?' What??? After exactly 48 hours, when we were on the phone speaking about how our xmas are going, refusing to see me... she wants to know how my xmas were??
This cannot be true... well, I calmed down a bit and sent her a lovely message describing the xmas with my family and wishing her all the good and warm emotions. Period. And just asking how her xmas were... she just simply answered that her xmas were more family like, than she would expect, and now she's watching a movie. Period.
Guys.... pleeeeaaaaaaseee... tell me how to do all the stuff that I'm doing... the LOA... am I implementing it right? I know I should still try and try and first and foremost find the peace within myself... letting go... and the LOA will bring her back to me.
But still, just wanted to know, how to behave in situations like these... txting, msgin and stuff...
Also I would like to read some of your thoughts on how you're got your ex back, how you did it... are you still trying...
I can see that a lot of people here are just saying, that they are going to implement the LOA into their lives in order to get their exes back, but there are a lot of un-updated stories... so you really don't know if it worked out or not.
Well, I promise I will keep my story and posts updated... I really strongly believe in all the affirmations and the states of mind I can put myself into... and I want to do it.. i WILL do it.
I'm sorry for this story to be so long... but I guess this is my part of my healing process, and I just wanted to share it with you guys.
Let the LOA and the Universe make a way for us being together again... I wish all you heartbroken people the same. Love always wins
I would appreciate any comments and encouragement and ideas for as how to move on, and what to do next.
Thanks for sharing the experience