Author Topic: It's our non extistent anniversary (Read 1548 times)

MinDiddy · « **on:** April 05, 2011, 05:27:36 AM »

Today would have been our 2 year anniversary. I'm trying to remain strong and positive, but I can't help but feel a bit on the sad side today.

We had talked on the phone two days prior and everything was ok. I let him lead the conversation and he asked all about my family and then he proceeded to tell me about his life and some work situation that we was going through. I was so happy and grateful to be able to talk to him and it be civil and nice and he shared parts of his life with me, which for him is a big deal because he's not much of a talker and he doesn't share personal info easily.

I saw him yesterday at an event of a club that we are mutually in. It was ok, but we don't really get to socialize with each other, because due to club rules we are not supposed to be together. Therefore it is difficult to act "normal" at these events. He said hi to me, but he never hugged me. Every time I would walk somewhere near where he was, he would stay a few minutes, then we would move to another place not near me. It bothers me and makes me questions his feelings. There are times when I have faith and I am so confident in our love. Then there are times when I get nervous and let doubt creep in.

A few wonderful things have happened tho, one, there was a problem with my ATM card yesterday and I walked up to him to hell him and he immediately offered to help me. He also called me later to make sure that everything was straightened out and ok. Then later that night I text him and asked if he was busy later ... with no response from him ... then I test him and said that today would have been out 2 year anniversary. I definitely did not expect a response from him, because generally when it has some sort of emotion attached to the message he tends to shy away and back off from me. But then I text and asked if he wanted to come over and hang out with me and my roommates and to please respond yes or no even if his answer is no. And he actually called me!!?? I was shocked! He called and told me all about what he was doing and no he could call... but he called! And he didn't shy away from me. THANK THE UNIVERSE!

And for those of me that know my history and story I have a thing with manifesting pennies .... I have manifested 29 pennies since him and I broke up. I ask the Universe to please send me a penny in my path when I'm feeling doubt or fear .. I ask the Universe to please send me pennies .. that I am so happy and grateful for the pennies that I find in my path to remind me that I am on the right track with my love and that everything I want is coming to me. Well , yesterday while he was there with me, I walked into the bathroom and I just started thinking about how he was there and he wasn't really going out of his way to talk to me, but I did notice him looking at me .. I caught him a few times lol ... and I said to myself ... I haven't really asked for a penny in a few days .. maybe a penny would help me to feel better ... then the most amazing thing happened ... just like many of the other times before .. I walked out of the bathroom and on the floor was my penny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess I am having faith that what I want is just around the corner. I just need to keep up my affirmations. Any words of encouragement??

DH4-everhappyinlove · « **Reply #1 on:** April 05, 2011, 06:44:12 AM »

Hi MinDiddy

Continue doing what you are doing your story is so encouraging....keeping the faith is what we all need to be doing blessed your soul my dear...your Happiness is right around the corner....believe, just believe you inspired me thanks.

Much Love and Peace.

boomergirl · « **Reply #2 on:** April 05, 2011, 07:08:04 AM »

MinDiddy.....very inspiring. Keep up doing whatever you are doing. It's working!

Love is in the air!!!

57angel · « **Reply #3 on:** April 05, 2011, 03:38:37 PM »

MinDiddy, keep holding what you have now and continue making you the best that you can be - don't let any doubts and fear creep in, you both deserve to be happy and to have a very happy relationship

Detached&Allowing · « **Reply #4 on:** April 06, 2011, 12:26:26 AM »

Mindiddy,

Don't taint your day with sadness. Your whole story is nothing but goodness. Keep up the excellent progress!!

Lots of love and best of LOA to you!

browneyes · « **Reply #5 on:** April 06, 2011, 08:52:04 PM »

Your making great progress. Keep the faith. If I am correct, you did manifest your guy by deliberately applying the LOA(made your wish list, visualized etc).

MinDiddy · « **Reply #6 on:** April 12, 2011, 05:05:58 AM »

Ok guys! GREAT news to report!!!!

I have chills just typing this .....

I saw my guy yesterday at a club function that we are both involved in. I tried to do my own thing and not cling to him .. but he persisted to mention small things to me here and there and ask how my family was etc. I also noticed he sat near me and was again watching me. I went to get some food and I text him a picture and I asked if he wanted some and he said he would share with me!!

So later that day .. I text and asked him what he was doing after the function and if he wanted to come and hang out..... I waited ... and waited ... no text back... but I decided it was ok .. if he didn't want to I didn't want to push .... but then just when I was going to give up he text me ... "Will you wash my car?" (inside joke cause I constantly wash my car and I had mentioned that I was going home to wash it) and I replied "if you come over? Maybe lol" and he text me "ok." I started screaming for joy!!! But I didn't want to get too carried away ... so I text him "So does that mean that you are coming?" and he responds "Don't know yet" ... and I told myself .. don't panic ... it is what it is ... don't push him ... don't text him .... and all the sudden right after I pull into my garage I get a text ... "I'm here for my car wash" I cannot tell you how much I FLIPPED out!!! This is what I had been waiting for and asking for for MONTHS now!!!!!!

He was actually there ... with me .. at my house ... I was so nervous and happy and so many things all at once! My heart was racing .. I was shouting in my head "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!"

He immediately came upstairs to my room turned on the TV and watched the Laker game in my bed!!!!! It was slightly awkward I must admit. I had to race to my room before him to hide the pictures that I still have out of him .. I didn't want him to see them. lol When we sat there I could tell he didn't want to allow himself to get too comfortable. I KNOW he misses me .. I KNOW he loves me ... I just think that he has to come to the realization of that by himself .... I think he's struggling with it .. do to fear and stubbornness. We didn't cuddle but we did talk a little .. it was honestly just AMAZING that he came over to hang out with me!

When he left he hugged me and put his face in my neck and I didn't want to let him go...

But when he left he said he would call me the next day .. I was so so so happy .. but at the same time I was feeling odd .. because it was on the awkward side.. but I was grateful because it did take a tremendous amount of effort for him to come over to my house .. where he once lived with me for 8 months...

I had a dream last night that he told me that he was ready to start hanging out with me more and he wanted to see much more of me ... it was great!

Then in the morning ... I did my ritual of gratitude sayings and I cried .. good crying ... grateful tears ... happy sad tears ... I just hoped and prayed that this visit would not scare him away from me ... and then when I went to randomly choose a sweater to wear today .. I put my hand in my pocket ... and there was my penny!!!!!!!!!!!! I rejoiced I screamed I jumped up and down. I said aloud to myself .. "I am so happy" "everything is going to be ok".....

I came to work .... on my phone I have a daily reminder that goes off .. an alarm that says "I am so happy and grateful now that Joe is my boyfriend again" and right after I said it aloud and felt it ... he text me! "Call me when you are not busy" OMG!!! Crazy!

Then I went to the restroom and I looked up and there was another penny TAILS UP! I seriously freaked out in a GOOD way! I was thanking the Universe and crying and I couldn't believed it! Every time I have a slight doubt the Universe reassures me .... I am AMAZED by the POWER of the Universe and the Secret , the LOA and the Belief and Faith ... It is truly amazing!

Things are good .. very good... I'm trying to keep my cool... remain grateful for the smallest baby steps on the pathway to me and my love's future ... I know its coming ,...it's just a matter of when!

THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Today was another day that the Universe really proved to me how powerful it is and I am so so so so so so grateful!

Believing Love · « **Reply #7 on:** April 12, 2011, 05:45:46 AM »

I am happppppy for you !!!!
Hope to hear more great newsss to come !
Kisssses!!!!

DH4-everhappyinlove · « **Reply #8 on:** April 12, 2011, 06:07:45 AM »

I can actually feel your happiness/joy MinDiddy...I am really happy for you.

...and I am sure there will me more happy news from you.....awwwwww ;)http://www.youtube.com...please enjoy this video.


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belive88 · « **Reply #9 on:** April 12, 2011, 03:24:14 PM »

Mindiddy i am sooooo sooo happy for you! i felt excitement in myself while reading your story!!!!

good on you

, im soooo sooo happpyy for you!!! your love is just around the corner!

keep us posted!

could you share with us what you did, iam sure it will help everyone here

xoxoxox

Detached&Allowing · « **Reply #10 on:** April 13, 2011, 03:55:30 AM »

Mindiddy,

i can feel the excitement radiating from your post. Congratulations! You are keeping your emotions in check. That is good. When you say it is okay if something doesn't go as planned, you are keeping true to the letting go aspect of LOA. You are doing awesome!! Keep up the progress!!

Lots of love!!

MinDiddy · « **Reply #11 on:** April 26, 2011, 03:35:30 AM »

Update ......

We have had lots of contact and I have gone to his house to spend the night and he has continued to keep in touch. He has driven to my house three times in two weeks!! It has been wonderful ... but it has been a bit awkward and also very platonic .. except for a week ago when we did the deed (but it was very detached- non emotional)

He called me and randomly asked me to dinner very spontaneously .. I was so overjoyed! But dinner was slightly odd.. not much conversation ... and then he came to my house and he hung out with me and my family had a good time then left to go home .. said he was coming to my Easter Breakfast the next morning. Then breakfast comes ... and he is a no show.... I am trying so hard to focus on gratitude... be grateful and have no expectations.. but I notice old habits creeping in ... it's been so difficult for me to always find the parts of the situation that make me happy .. because I was genuinely disappointed .. so many wonderful things have been happening .. I have been letting him come to me on his own .. trying to not bombard him with attention and not to push him .. but I'm so confused .... does anyone have any advice for me .. or have any idea what they think may be going on ....

On a positive note ... I was very melancholy this morning ... then as I was walking into work ... I noticed something in my shoe was bothering me ... guess what I found?? My penny!!! THANK YOU Universe! I needed that!!!

But any advice anyone has to offer please do?

DH4-everhappyinlove · « **Reply #12 on:** April 26, 2011, 04:37:17 AM »

MinDiddy

Continue to show gratitude even though he was a no show...don't let any negativity creep in and if u are not able to help them just give them your attention just for a little while then send them on their merry way.....you have come thus far and you have been such an inspiration to me and am sure many others.

Trust in yourself continue to do what you are doing and it will all work out...he is yours and never ever place any doubt in your mind because you know...just hang on to that thought my dear....I must also let you know that even thou you may have felt a little down your post is still sending that positive energy bless you for that....I am really grateful for that energy and I must tell you Thanks a Million.

Magdog, MD, Mr. Best Luck · « **Reply #13 on:** April 26, 2011, 04:46:44 AM »

Mindiddy,

Just relax and trust in your vibration, it will happen, I have not posted any manifestations on here in a long time, but things are progressing between me and her, things have been lining up, stay calm and just be yourself, and remember this, he will be lucky to have a person that loves him so much attract, attract, attract. Just be the happiest best person you can be. All the best to you.

You are happy and always ok, actually great and in great spirits, know that, be that, observe, do not react, its all part of the process. Always come from a place of love, trust and trust yourself, you have the power.

MD, Mr. Best Luck, Humble and Grateful

MinDiddy · « **Reply #14 on:** April 26, 2011, 04:56:22 AM »

Thank you thank you D Hayes and Magdog .. you both just made me cry .. tears of joy and gratitude ... I am so lucky to have this forum and have all of you to support me .. I cannot express how much I appreciate your kind words of advice and your encouragement.

You are so right!!! "stay calm and just be yourself, and remember this, he will be lucky to have a person that loves him so much attract, attract, attract."
THANK YOU for this!!! I truly believe that we all deserve to live a wonderful happy and fulfilling life .. I hope you all have great success in attracting your exs back ... and again I appreciate all of you so much!!!!!