Is this detachment or is this giving up?

[MermaidWife]

When I logged on to Facebook the next day (I always visit his page because that is my bad habit of stalking him) he had deleted me. (He had made a deletion sweep before –about 3 days before- and I was spared, but last night I guess he had deleted me.) I was sad, but not devastated.  And after that I started to think of him less through out the day. It was a different feeling. I would think of him all the time and the suddenly throughout my day I would realize, “I’m not thinking about him” It felt weird and it worried me. I would try to think about him, about us, about my dreams to be together but they always seemed to evaporate somehow against my will. No matter how hard I tried. It’s been two or three days now, since he erased me and this feeling has dawned upon me.
This feeling of blankness, of not really caring as much anymore it’s confusing me. Is this the law of detachment? Or is this giving up? Did my heart give up without me knowing? Or is it that he has finally erased me, that he’s moved on completely and that the bond between us been severed now and that is why I think of him less because he no longer thinks of me? (I had read on these forms somewhere that “perhaps the reason why you are attracted to them is because they are attracted to you/ thinking of them because they are too thinking of you.” I believe this as well)
 I still care for him, and I still love him, and I still want our new beautiful relationship together, but this feeling of not wanting it so much anymore, is this Law of detachment?  I still believe in us, I still want us, but why then do I feel as if I don’t care anymore? Is it because he’s forgotten about me that I am no longer bonded with him that I feel this way? It frightens me because I know that if she is happier she will attract him more but this blankness, not sorrow, not destructive fear, this blankness like a void, but not a blacken void of darkness, but a blankness has filled me and I’m not sure what to do, or what it really is.

I want this dream to last, to live and come true. I pulled my self out of desperation as best as I could and I believe I was out of it because I would mostly think of the good things that happened in our relationship. I am thankful that he was my first, and for all the breathtaking memories he gave me. I am grateful for all the things he taught me and most of all how he showed me love, weather it was returned or not. I love him for who he is and I forgive him for all the time he’s hurt me. I forgave my self too for manifesting such horrors in our relationship. I am grateful, and I do want to be with him but now I don’t know what to do? Is this detachment? Is there something more I can do? Is there something I should do?

Peace and Smile
- thank you for reading this-
   MermaidWife.

[RealCrimsonDynamo]

OK...this is going to sound a little weird but why does it matter if it is giving up or detaching?  What I mean by that is don't get caught up in wondering and worrying about him and those girls.   It seems that this is coming from a negative place hence your concern about it.  I think if it was letting go there would be no negative connotations to it.  The only person you need to worry about is yourself.  I am guilty of this too so don't think I'm speaking from a point of not knowing how that Blank feeling gets to you.  But you got to keep on taking care of yourself and being happy.  The blank feeling seems to be the result of him deleting you...an action on his part.  You shouldn't let your peace of mind be based on what he does or does not do.  I think this guy has a lot of things that he needs to work thru if he is ever going to give you the relationship that you deserve.  Let the universe take care of  him.  Take care of yourself and reevaluation your situation from a standpoint of clarity and not from this point of confusion regarding detachment and letting go. 

[Angelland]

I am so very new at this, but I read many stories on that when someone feels like giving up, or letting go and that it doesn't matter anymore wether he/she comes back, most of the times miracles and wonders start to happen and out of the blue, messages coming, phone calls are made, or emails are send.
Most of the time, that when they didnt expect it anymore, they got what they wished for in the first place.
So I am working on letting go and let God/The Universe handle this, it has much better ways to reunite me, than I ever can think oif possible.

[lashark]

If you feel blank or depressed when letting go then you arent naturally letting go, if feels that way because you are forcing yourself, you are placing alot of work and effort into that part, you dont have to work or worry or stress or analyze anymore, if you still feel like you desire something ALOT, let yourself do that and dont beat yoruself up for not letting go faster or easier, letting go feels like freedom and bliss and excitment not blank or depressed, know that eventually you will get it down but dont rush it dont force the letting go part, when you actually do and you have done it naturally manifestions come SO FAST, but if you are worried about letting go or trying to make it happen, it wont feel good. and if you are currently in such a state just know, trust me, know this, that you wont be in that state forever. you will never regress. you cant get it wrong. you will feel better and you will know on your own and naturally you will let go and you  will achieve everything your mind concieves. So stressing about it right now does you no service, and most importantly doesnt feel good, and all that matters is that you feel good right now.

[MermaidWife]

RealCrimson: Thank you, you are right it shouldn't matter because in the end it probably is just negative energy and i should focus on what makes me happy instead. I know this but this new form of negativity confused me, this gentle void. And thank you for being stern you are absolutely right i shouldn't worry myself with what he may or may not be doing with other girls or guys. Heh i feel a little silly for posting this. I guess i got my answer it's neither. It's none of them, detachment or giving up, or even the severing possibility. It's just plain and simple fear. Thank you. I'm going to focus on myself more. I love my self very much and love the way I am, but there are other dreams just for me that i have not been working on. I suppose i should put at least half as much energy into those as i have done for this dream. 

Angelland: Thank you that gives me hope. I choose to keep going preying for these dreams~

Lashark: Thank you Thank you thank you. It's not detachment then, I started to tear up as i read your response, you are right it doesn't feel natural, it just feels empty. I'm not going to give up because I guess since I'm feeling so lost, confused and blank, that I am still attached and realizing that gives me a renewed sense of hope and energy. I am an impatient person, i hate waiting, it's so very agonizing to me, so i guess the reason i felt so blank was my impatience and fear. I'm going to remember your words quite a bit, I'm going to do my best to feel good at least 70% of the time or more.~