I lost him by too much attachment - needs your help again

[Powerfull]

Hi everyone
needs your help again because I spoiled everything by my attachment to him 
briefly describe in my stories again
We met a year ago, we were with each other 6 months and it was wonderful. he and I we are from two different countries and two different cultures. He left me in December 2010. I am terribly broke. I did not know then the LOA. I started to look for some tips on how to recover him and came across the LOA. I started go into it and hope returned. Now in retrospect I see that all this time I was and probably still am very attached to him. Visualized his back, but still I could not let go. We hadn't contact since December. The first time since we met in May, because I returned to work on the island where we worked together and we met years earlier. Back here I did not know what will be our contacts and how he respond to my person. we went back to each other but I started to listen to what people say about our relationship, about him. a little scared at first, did not know what to believe. He always told me I should not listen to the people and when I stopped, he suddenly changed. Now he started to pay attention to people talk. working together and everyone wanted to know what is between us now (know of broke up), they began to speak to him the better if we are just friends and nothing more. after a while he told me that we can not be together, that he doesn't wants to be associated with anyone this year, he wants to be alone and do what he wants, that I do not have with him the future if our cultural differences that could never marry me because he needs to bind with the girl of his circle of cultural. He said that I'm a nice girl and does not want me to cheat. I do not remember what I told him, we went for a beer at the bar next door and exiting said that we can be together but no one can know. I agreed. I met people at work already, they all want to know everything. knowing we broke up and I returned from this year and again we are together, considered him as someone unknown. Unfortunately, he listens and does not want people spoke bad about him. all the time from that moment our relationship look that once was good and once quarreled on death and life (one day  we argued that even more were not together, pulls us together, we will meet but it's not like years ago - all the time I have in my head how was great our relationship a year ago, he was different, now has changed). all this time I was very very very attached to him, everything he did and said had an effect on me. in all this, I lost the principle of LOA, if I go back to them is always on a desperate. So I could not trust, to be calm, believe and do nothing - do not run all the time behind him, give him a peace. I've always had the feeling that I have no time, that in a moment we are finish work and he returns to his country and everything is lost and therefore I could not trust LOA, I wanted everything right now. Today I remained two days to my departure (I finished work 2 weeks ago, but I decided to stay because he's still working, all the time I had hope that things will work out). at one point became so helpless that I decided to change everything, and finally trust in the LOA, get back to me, to be happy independently of him. But what turned out to be quite difficult, because every day we have seen in the work and to live next door. Katie gave me great advice (my man just like her,  told me that he does not love me anymore) I started using EFT, thanks every day for everything I have and what else I get, but sometimes I do not feel that for which I thank. returns affection and desperation that time is running out and nothing has changed. I know that the universe time does not matter, I say it myself, but for a moment some pixie pop out the back of my head to remind me about the time.
Since last Thursday we do not talk, once again we argued (my fault because I was terribly unpleasant, I do not know what happened, but suddenly I felt a terrible anger to him, and since this all started, said he does not want me to know, that I know that can not be with me) I cried and I felt that everything broke again, that I lost him forever. I went back to reading success story in the forum, the history of Katie and your advice and I managed to very quickly pick up and return to positive thinking.
We still live next door, yesterday went out of the house and he just boarded the car, looked at me - in his eyes did not see hate, but quickly turned his head and went. maybe this is an indication of improvement...
Sunday morning I have a plane and I wanted that drove me, but I fear to ask him, I fear to hear "no". I have a day like today, that I want to cry, because even though I started working with the LOA, I hope to finally improve, do not want to leave, not talking to him, not forgiving everything. I know that what I feel it attracts, but how do I cope with fear of no longer see him (although I'll be back here next year and I think that he too), that we never return to each other, that this was the definitive end?? Today I can not help myself with it all

I will be grateful for your advice

and I'm sorry if it is difficult to understand what I wrote, I tried as best I can present to you my situation

[SilverSoul]

I have read your whole story it's a bit long . and I can see you are from a foreign country so it's ok that your grammer isn't perfect ...

Anyway - I will try and help . but I will be honest with you ... I think . he is not the right person for you . but you keep holding on to him .

Those things you constantly argue about . are what holds you from being together...

I want you to ask yourself - can these differences of couture between you , be worked on? and can you see yourself being in a happy relationship with him ? what are the good things about this relationship that make it worth saving . what is it about his qualities - that make him worthy of your love?

is this what you really want? or are you just too attached to him...

sometimes we look at our love and think of it as perfect . while everyone around us can see that theres something wrong ...

either way - the fact you are flying will be good for you . it will help you clear your mind . and think about things in a more neutral way . not to mention , it will allow the negative emotions to sink , and allow him to miss you ...

[Powerfull]

Thanks that you read my story in particular that is long. I apologize for my English but unfortunately it isn't perfect, but I hope you can understand me.

so I can be happy with him despite their differences, accept its culture and willing to recognize it, is not a problem for me.

This year he's changed. But I think he's still has the qualities that I loved. only by his previous experience he is afraid to get involved again (married at age 20, had to be really in love with his ex wife, but the marriage was over and he really a survivor. recently said that no longer trust any woman. he was very hurt. He does not understand me as a speech that not all women are the same and can trust me like before because I can not hurt someone that I really love). I see that he is terribly confused, even my friend told me "I think he loves you in depth, but he is afraid and does not know what he wants"

I know that we can still be happy as before. I know this is love, because if not, being away from him for half a year when he left me, have forgotten about him. I cried but I would be cured of it. i know this is love, I know it!

maybe you're right that distance will help me, but on the other hand, today the whole day crying, I can not pick up, I miss. I know it's always a sign of affection. I no longer know how to help myself, I repeat that the universe knows the best time and I must trust but in a moment again back previous thinking.

I have the impression that EFT does not help me, I do not know what I am doing wrong

I would like him to say goodbye before leaving, but I fear to call or knock on his door...