I did something really stupid... really.... really... i swear...

[Velocity]

Hey there,

this is my story: http://www.powerlawofattraction.com/forum/law-of-attraction-for-relationship-6/a-somewhat-different-%27success-story%27/msg45398/#msg45398

Short Version:
-4 yrs relationship with the girl of my drams
-She moved away to study in another city
-fell in love with a guy there, didnt break up with me but turned our relationship into hell till we seperated
-is now in a relationship with this guy
-we are seperated for one year in may and had no contact till febuary
-she is not happy in her new relationship (cause he aint me... hrhrhr... ok forgive me) and still hast strong feelings for me
-Of course i want her back, never stopped loving her.

So now to what i did...
It all went soooo well. I used LoA much and initiated contact in febuary. We had a lot of contact since then via txt or instant messenger and we met one time. She clearly showed me that she still has feelings for me at this day. I then, after some time, told her that i am still in love with her after all that has happend and that i forgive her and that i want us to be together again. At first she kind of paniced, mainly because she is still in a relationship. But after some time this thought about us grew in her. Sometimes it felt like i did some kind of inception to her, for those of you who know the movie.

However we decided to meet again and we talked about how we think this all could work out and why we should go back together again and all this. We even held hands for couple of minutes and i clearly could read her body language that was very positive. I really could convince her that i am complete in peace with her and myself and that there is no need to stress and that i also want things to develope slowly and that there is no need to rush.
She then said she has to think about all this again and she is still in another relationship and that we will stay in touch. We also agreed that she will have made her decision by Febuary 18, because she then is moving to this other city again to continue with her study (what would not be a problem for our realtionship because its not too far away). It all went sooo well... I was in the flow and knew she was downstream, like esther hicks once said =D.

Unfortunately, because all went well so fast, i became attached again. And i saw that there was not as much contact as before after we met the last time... she probably pulled back a little to think about all this. But when a whole week passed with nearly no contact, i kind of freaked out and stressed her with txt-messages one evening that she should make her decision now and that she is loosing me if she is continuing this way. I stressed this much that she replyed like "stop it now!!! i dont know how to decide, its a difficult situation, dont stress me this way! you seem totally different from what you were when we met! This kind of stress makes me think that maybe we should not do it, i will make a decision but right now i cant!!!!". So then i stopped. This was on Wednesday evening and since then we had no contact at all. Well done.... I broke all my rules and ignored all the wisdom and lost all my strengh i developed for so long.

I feaked out because i was fighting for her so hard for nearly one year now and she always turned me down until now when it came so close for us to be together again. I suffered really bad the last year until i managed to detach and did everything right in terms of loa. And then i felt like it all was slipping out of my hands again and i lost it somehow... started stressing her when i wanted to proof her that iam not that stessy person anymore...

Now i am really scared that this will influence her dicision...
Just wanted to write it off the soul.
Anybody has a tipp how to deal with this situation. I wont contact her anymore now until she contacts me because i am scared that she is annoyed of me now... god this is so fcked. i was SOOOO CLOSE... and i messed it up....
I want to apologize about stressing her this way but i can only do this on a psychic-level... cant contact her directly because iam afraid she will be annoyed... i think she will contact me if she wants... but i want to tell her somehow that iam sorry and that i give her the time she needs... ahrg...

[love.producer]

I've been there also, the thing i regret most is the things i said not the things i didn't. lol
So if it helps, its better to be quiet instead of talking and stressing, You don't even have to say sorry, she knows !

If you managed to get to the point where you started seeing eachother and talking about getting back together from NOTHING where she had another guy you can definatly turn this around.

its like you went from 0 - 90% and now you've fallen back to 30% and all you have to do is send the love and wishes like you did!

I have faith in you!
You can't give up now when you've seen your own power! dont get scared next time! she knows whats best, when you are the best

[Velocity]

Thanks for your encouraging words =).

This could have been kind of a test if iam ready for her again. Because shes a person you MUST NOT stress this way. Well i did not pass xD. But i will, sooner or later. And usualy there is a second chance in every test .

[MikeG]

Well if you did it once, then you can do it again aswell. If you attracted her once, then you can also attract her again You said it yourself in your last post, the law of attraction is a basic rule of life. The last thing you write about in your post, about you wanting her to contact you, just do the same the same that you did before! Be happy, believe that she truly will take you back and accept your apologies and BAM! You're back with the girl of your dreams!

Remember this: You've done this already. What's stopping you from doing it again?

[love.producer]

You can do this!!

there are always chances! they will never stop!

Take the step =) Atleast you are starting from a point which is GREATER than what you started with at first! be happy you got a lot more to play with