I have never been loved, I have experienced unrequited love and it feels bad! I hope no one ever goes through this. Anyway I have never really had a guy like me or anything, guys always say they cant believe I'm single but they never want to date me. The guys who do aren't my type at all. I have tried giving them a chance but whats the point in forcing something when it feels so unnatural. I get very depressed at times, that I dont have anyone and that everyone seems to be finding love but I cant even get the ones I do like.
I gave up several months ago, I was upset about it. Then I watched the secret and applied to different parts of my life. However, I havent been able to attract anyone at all. I used this to stop myself from giving up but I couldn't and now I dont believe I will ever find the guy I really want. Yes I do have standards and of course thats a bit of a setback but I dont want to settle yet, maybe some day when I realise I should appreciate that at least that guy showed interest in me. Right now, I'm 21 and everyone around me has someone. I have always been the only one to not experience love or any of that sort. I gave up and of course feel the pain. Sometimes I feel desperate, when i realise I don't have anyone and other times I dont expect anything anymore. I'm still in so much pain from the last guy who strung me along. He was more than what I wanted and he pretended to like me too, some days I'm over it and other days I realise I still wish I had someone. I don't think the pain is him in particular but just someone who I like to like me the same. How do I just let go, when I keep falling back on those thoughts of needing love?