He says he doesn't love me anymore

[Katie]

Hello, I'm new here, posting from Europe

Here is my problem :

I have been living with this wonderful man for over 5 years. Last December, I was very depressed, and the doctor gave me some pills that were supposed to make me feel better. Instead, I became nervous and we spent the whole month arguing over anything. I was so doped up that I can't remember everything, but he told me that I insulted his children... I can't remember saying that, but if he says it, it must be true.

I stopped the medication and came back to my true self in a matter of days

Ever since, there is a huge gap between us, he tells me that he has no more feelings for me, and that he cannot forgive what happened in December. I have asked for forgiveness several times, but he says he cannot forgive. I try to make him understand that I'm truly sorry, and that if I hadn't been prescribed such inadequate medecine, nothing would have happened. He refuses to forgive me. We don't argue or fight anymore,  we just live like two strangers

I have done everything to win his heart back, I has lost 20 lbs, been loving and patient, but it seems there is a wall between us and he is not willing to break that wall


I have been declared disabled, for a rare pancreatic illness. Which means that my income will be about 500 dollars a month. Not only am I totally in love with him, but my whole life would crumble if he ever throws me out of his house. Nowhere to live, no family or friends to turn to

I am in love with him, and cannot rid myself of this needy feeling, because I feel that it's really over, and that means not only losing him, but losing my entire life

I try to feel detached, but how Please help me, is there a way to get his love back, for I am contemplating suicide

[Miracles]

Dear Odessa!

You've done so much work visualizing, worrying over, analyzing the details and feeling what it would be like if he kicked you out of his life! It's no surprise that you're getting more worry and fear!

If you want positive feelings, you must alter your thoughts!!

- Start a gratitude journal.. (in your post, you didn't mention one thing that you're grateful for!) .. Be genuinely grateful!
- Do stuff that make you feel good.. one very common thing is exercise.. or go take a walk outdoors, or whatever activity that places you in a good mood..
- When you're in a good mood, VISUALIZE! see yourself in the future, Happy with your man, looking and feeling beautiful, having a blast out of life!
- Clean your subconcious from your worries and fears.. (i think i should;ve mentioned this at the very beginning..) .. Try the H'oponopono method.. you'll find posts about it here on the forum. It's an ancient Hawaiian cleansing technique.. 4 very simple phrases that you repeat to yourself, and it just clears all the blockage in your subconcious.. This method has been working wonders for so many members here on the forum.

Most of all.. Love yourself, unconditionally.. and give love to your man unconditionally also.. Remember what brought him to you and kept him with you for 5 years must still be there.. it's just covered under a pile of negative thinking and unhealthy emotions..

Release all that, and let it go..

And stay on tis forum, the people here are extremely supportive and helpul, you'll never feel alone.. go read the Success Stories forum.. So many people write about their experiences and how they succeeded in getting what they want, after they thought there was no hope..

Learn, and be happy!

Suicide is just really unnecessary.. it's much cooler to find a fresher, healthier way of LIVING!! =) 

Best of LOA to you!   

[Miracles]

Also if you haven't already, I highly recommend that you read The Secret book, or watch the documentary!!

That would be a great start for your journey as well!

and remember, this forum is here for you!

[57angel]

Odessa, NEVER NEVER EVER plan to commit suicide! Your life is not a waste, remember that you are here to spread love - first and foremost to yourself and to everyone around you. Know that you can BE, DO and HAVE everything that your heart desires, only if you will allow that to happen into your life Have you seen the movie "The Secret"? LOA says, "thoughts become things" Given this, I suggest you work inwards. More often than not, our subconscious minds had stored negative beliefs from our experiences since the very first minute we are conceived by our mothers. Try to look into this, and as soon as you know what that is, work in that. You can use daily affirmations and gratitude journal (as Schenderson22 told me the first time I was here and it really shifted my vibration!), visualize and meditate. Don't let your man be in that pedestal, it is your life and you must be there and that you should not be affected whatever he will do. Don't let his words and actions affect you in your way, instead do the things you love and work inwards - it is him who should feel how lucky he is for having you in his life, it is him who should feel so very blessed for having you in his life and not the other way around. We are with you in this, you have a wonderful, healthier and happier life ahead of you if you only choose to. Keep reading the posts of everyone here in the forum and feel free to ask questions. Lots of love, blessings and more reasons to smile coming to you - each and every minute of your life!

[Katie]

Thank you so much for answering my desperate post.

I have read the Secret, I read it almost every day, I have also read Ask and it is Given many, many times.

There seems to be something wrong in my approach, because I know what to do, but I end up shooting myself in the foot. My man knows that I love him, maybe I've been acting too needy, but how not to feel needy, when your world comes crumbling down.

I have kept a gratitude journal, and have done some scripting, but when he tells me : I don't love you anymore, I want to move on to something (someone) else, I feel so desperate, I am in such pain that the only way out appears to be suicide. I cannot even imagine living without him

I visualize him coming to me and telling me that he wants to give our couple another chance, and then I'm just swamped by all the negative things he says, and it overwhelms me. How can I believe this, when he says the exact contrary ?

I cannot face the idea of living without him, I love him so much... and how would I survive with such low income, the illness I have does not permit me to work and earn a decent living

[Katie]

I have also tried Ho'oponopono, but to no avail 

[hzhangqian]

Come on! you will find a better one who loves you

[ava]

Dear odessa,when you want to work with LOA you should neglect the current truth about your situation and just look at where you want to be and make it your goal and act as you have it already now.i know that your situation is not good,but there are a lot of members in this forum that were in your situation and they could change it just with their thoughts,feelings and vibrations.there are a lot of success stories here about who their significant other told them that i hate you!but when they felt powerful the situation extremely changed!

[ava]

here is the link that i am sure will help you:http://www.powerlawofattraction.com/forum/6/bible-of-getting-your-ex-back-dns-post/msg1970/#msg1970

[Katie]

Thank you Ava, but the link doesn't seem to work

[ava]

oh you're right odessa, sorry but you can search it as:bible of getting your ex back.

[Katie]

Thank you Ava

[ava]

 

[Vicki Christina]

www.powerlawofattraction.com/forum/6/bible-of-getting-your-ex-back-dns-post/
Here is the link!   The members have really given some good ideas in there messages to you.   The Secret and the Hicks book both leave out the part that you first have to get rid of the negative beliefs that are deep in your thoughts.   Reading about Tapping (EFT) and the Sedona Method are good ways to do this.  It is not easy to change and manifest a wonderful life until these subconscious beliefs are worked with and released from holding you back from joy.  They even have an effect on our health. 
Hugs!!!  VC

[Katie]

Thank you so much for your support

I am aware that I have negative beliefs and negative patterns. I have tried EFT.

One of the problems is, I am not only head over heals in love with this man, but I am also financially dependant on him, having this very rare illness that keeps me from working. How can I detach from him, when I am in such NEED from him, on all levels ? It's not as if I had a successful career, or even just the possibility to have an ordinary job.