I love, and send love unconditionally, then I move into irritation because it's not being reciprocated, then that feeling of desparation, followed by the need to detach. Sometimes at that point he may contact me, and then it starts all over again. One big circle.
Today, I am in the just sending love mode. If nothing happens, the nothing happens. I imagine myself giving him a great big hug and sending all mu love to him and leaving it at that.
Last week, when I was in my sad/desparate mode, I asked my 'angels' to send me a sign that he thinks of me. Perhaps a butterfly. It was spring, seeing a butterfly should be easy. But no butterfly's were anywhere to be found. All day Saturday and Sunday I thought I could 'feel' him thinking of me. You know, that feeling in your soul that tells you it's them, that physical manifistation of tingling, anxous 'butterfly-in-the-stomach' feelings. Off and on...Sunday I went sightseeing with a friend of mine and we walked into a building I had never been before and they had a huge butterfly display! It didnt dawn on me at first, then it clicked! Butterflys...and this overwhelming feeling again! The next building we went into, I kid you not, they even had butterfly carpet and imprint moldings on the walls of butterflys! When you ask for a sign, you usually get one.
Today I am still on the sending love to him. Whatever happens happens. Have a great day everyone, and try to stay on the light side and slip over to the desparate side.