Just a little update of sorts. I wont give the whole back story, but me and he reconnected after many years, it was great, he has done his famous disappearing acts, reappears when I practice NC and detachment (quicker with detachment) Last week he calls out of the blue....tells me he thinks of me all the time...
Next day we text back and forth....he admits that he has always loved me....wants to see me when he comes back from a trip next week....
I was scolded on here for putting out the 'he-disappears-all-the-time' negative vibe. So I am trying to stay real upbeat and just go on with my daily routine (okay, I am practicing a little bit of Remote Seduction...
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I text him last night to see how he is...his response is: X
now I am assuming that means Kiss...? He told me what he was doing at the moment, I told him it sounded like he was having fun, and I wouldnt interrupt, just wanted to say Hi. He responded "Thank you, I'm thinking about you too."
At first I was like "Thank you? for what? not interrupting you?" Then I laughed at myself and figured he meant because I said I just wanted to say Hi. (I hope)
I wrote back and just said "I know" Was that silly to say that? eh, who cares I guess.
Anyhoo ~ I am so anxious about next week that I cant seem to focus! I've been practicing the LOA with this relationship for so long that I am starting to see it bare fruit ~ It's just hard not to over analize everything that is said and done.
I had one person inbox me and tell me that it's not his intent to hurt me by not calling and disappearing ect, but a way to protect himself with his own conflicting feelings. But that no matter what, just love myself because we always forget to love ourselves first.
I not sure what my post is suppose to be about, I just feel I have to write something before I explode!
June 29, 2012, 01:39:56 AM
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