I need some objective advice from my LOA family, please! I am feeling very confused right now... I have 100% faith in LOA and many of you may have read of my successes! But right now, I stand at a fork in the road and I am not sure which path I should pursue....
I don't want to delve into the history of my story, I will just keep this short and sweet so it goes like this: Love of my life was moving overseas for an indefinite period of time. We parted ways and I was heartbroken. I discovered LOA and have been on a personal journey with LOA for about the past 8 months - an amazing, amazing journey for which I am so grateful! I have really learned that I am the creator of my own destiny and that feeling happy and having 110% faith that the Universe has my back is key! I am quite confused now though and I really feel like I need some clarity because I am sending mixed signals to the Universe and I am therefore attracting more confusing feelings and circumstances. In the past month this is a summary of what has happened:
1. Boy #1 (Love of my life whom I believe is my soulmate) called me on my birthday and we had a wonderful conversation, it was like nothing had changed between us. All of a sudden he is on my mind again and I can't shake the thought of him. I feel like I miss him a lot, I am going out and living my life and having lots of fun with my friends but he is always, ALWAYS on my mind. This is probably my ego getting in the way, but I am finding it really hard at the moment
2. I had my own plans to study overseas for 6 months beginning in August this year (a factor why we split because we didn't know when we would see each other again). These have now fallen through due to circumstances beyond my control. I clearly attracted this somehow, but I'm not sure how or why because I was really excited about my travels.
3. This changes everything because I will now see Boy #1 much sooner than I expected as he will be back in our home city in a few months time when I had thought I wouldn't be seeing him until at least half way through next year. Eeeeeek! I am really excited but also really nervous... And soooo confused. My emotions are all over place! I don't know what to feel.
4. I have sort of been seeing Boy #2. I successfully attracted him using LOA. In my mind, this would just be a casual fling because I would be leaving in just a few months. So it was like, this is fun for now, but ultimately I will be with Boy #1.
5. I like Boy #2, but I am not in love with him like I am with Boy #1, but there could be potential for something... The problem is that there is a huge mental block because I know Boy #1 will be back soon and I really, REALLY more than anything want things to work out with him but then again, I don't want it to appear like I am putting my life on hold for him.
6. I feel like I need to commit to attracting one or the other, not both. If I pursue Boy #2 further, I feel like this might be problematic when Boy #1 returns.
So this leads to my question: Who do I choose? Should I focus my point of attraction on Boy #1 and completely forget Boy #2?
This is really bothering me, so any advice you have would be really helpful...
Light and love to you all