A somewhat different "Success-Story"

[Detached&Allowing]

Just wanted to give a quick update... Maybe to get it all off my chest =D. Get the pressure off or something.

A few days ago i talked to her and after some time i came out with the truth about how i am still feeling for her, because i am a fan of clarity and cant stand playing these games and see what happens and all that. First she was a little like "i somehow knew this would happen but i blocked it out" and declared it as a kind of problem. But as we talked about it longer she admited that she doesnt really know what to do. She said that it was a not that great start with her new relationship because of the fact that she still thinks of me a lot and was used to a "differet kind of relationship" than he is offering her and she really was not ready. She said they were fighting a lot but she hoped and maybe still hopes that it will get better. She also said that she thinks she cant hurt someone again (him in this case)... it would be to hard for her. But she is not sure of the feelings she has for him and blablabla. In the end we stayed at the point where she will make her thoughts and decides what to do. She said that she totally does not know what is best for her and she finally wants to bring peace to the messy love life she had the last few months. I promised her she could have that with me. I said that i will give her the time she needs and all i want is a fair chance and that she doesnt block out the feelings she still has for me because she said they are there but she always tried to block them. As i telled a friend about every detail of conversation he said "50/50... she is absoloutly not sure what to do" 

Well... i was some kind of optimistic because i was happy she did not turn me down but really showed that she is considering to come back to me in her thoughts. But then i drove by her house because i had to visit my aunt that lives near her and saw the car of her so called boyfriend in front of her house at maybe 11:00 am. That kind of mind-raped me and i thought "this is unfair, he has all the chances to get close to her and drag her on his side and i dont... i have to wait for her to decide. And i also changed since the last year and she should see that".
So i wrote a text sayin something like if she wants to go out for a walk. i just want equal chances between him and me. But then she texted "Dont you give me my time??? i dont want to rush this... i am very busy because of my exams at the moment and really need some time to think it through"......ops...... I replyed just "Oh... sure i am giving you your time. sorry didnt knew your in such stress with exams". Since then there was almost no contact and i never saw her online again too^^. She told me that her father broke her internet connection by drilling through the cable by accident when he was renovating the basement xD ...

Well and now i am at the point i cant stand at all... waiting. waiting for her to decide and have no way of influencing her directly... ahrg...  Basic principle of LOA is that "like" attracts "like".  Therefore, "waiting" is only going to beget more waiting.  Move forward and make plans as though she is not in your life.  You cannot "physically" make her change the way she feels or be more clear on what she wants.  However, you can do this spiritually.  I am in  similar situation with my bf.  We "broke up" approximately 7 1/2 weeks ago.  Although I know why we are apart and understand this is all happening to bring to me my desired manifestation, the first four weeks were hell.  For the past three and a half weeks we have been "dating", taking it slow.  I do not push him to let me move back in. 9I am staying with my sister) In fact, I recently lost my job and told him it would be irresponsible to move back in without a job. I am making plans to house-sit for friends and go to broadway shows.  I can say that the other night we finally had a break-through. I could finally feel that romantic love he had for me once upon a time.  It was nice but I have to keep busy, keep distracted and do whatever I can on a spiritual level to make that change.   

Any idea how to handle this.... i noticed that iam maybe tryin too hard with meditation and all that... should turn that down too a little bit  I admit I am not great at meditating.  However, I love to listen to binaural beats, there is some chanting and other practices I enjoy.  I will gladly share this information with you. 

Lots of love and the very best of LOA to you!

[Velocity]

Thanks. Nice to hear you both are working it out. When me and my girl are back together this is also one thing i will do: Taking it slow... Very important.

But yeah this is the thing i am working on right now -> planing other stuff and dont depend on her. Seems like you managed to do this and therefore keeping detached.

About the binaural beats, you could send me a pm with some info if you like. would be grateful.

Thanks for the replys guys.