Hi everyone! I haven't been on for a while, probably because things have been progressing quite nicely and I've felt less-concious of my desires to attract this man back to me and just been believing and letting things happen
So, previously after my heart was broken and I decided to let go, but maintaining that inner smile and knowledge that this man will return to me and will be mine sooner or later, I have had several manifestations that I'd written down in my journal - come true! I had requested from The Universe that my man split up with his girlfriend, apologise to me for how he treated me, text me and ask me to hang out again. All these manifestations came true the other week. He text me late at night when he was drunk a long text about how sorry he was for how he'd acted. We got texting that night and I found out he no longer had a girlfriend, he was complimenting me a lot and was asking to come round - I said no obviously as he'd been drinking and it was so late.
I've also been seeing signs of my man's name and surname on TV adverts, a small taxi firm in my town that carries his nickname, and I always see white vans the same make and model as his when I'm walking to work or something. We've been getting along a lot better at work too. He'll come and chat to me for a bit when he's on his way through reception, or he'll be looking at me and smile when I catch his eye and he comes and chats for a bit after he's finished and I'm still working. These things may seem small and irrelevant but this is how he used to act around me at work before everything went wrong. And now when I see him or speak to him I feel happy and excited not full of dread and worry which cannot be a bad thing
Last weekend we were texting each other all weekend - and he would start the conversation first and text me first, which is something I've intended to The Universe, as I didn't want to go back to my old ways of texting him too much and being bothersome. Last Sunday he wanted me to hang out with him and he even drove to my town to pick me up and take me back with him, but he'd been playing pool and drinking that afternoon so I didn't choose to hang out with him in the end as I want things to be perfect when we hang out and him and me with alcohol has been a recipe for disaster in the past. But anyway, I felt strong and in-control to be making the decision! We were still talking the rest of the night through text messages.
Late Monday night when we were texting I said that I would like to see him and he said I "should of asked earlier because it was so late now" and I said "I know. Maybe I should be brave and ask for another day lol" and he said "Ye you should" so I said "If I asked would you say yes lol" and he said "Ye course I would come round" so I got really brave and invited him to hang out that week on Thursday evening, he said "sure it should be fun" and I was so so happy that he'd said yes! Unfortunately, we didn't end up hanging out in the end because he got roped into helping a family member move a load of house stuff in his van - but I am not allowing the small disappointment ruin my progress! He text me after work on Friday and we were texting yesterday too and he's been texting back really quickly and the conversation is flowing nicely - whereas before it felt stilted and like he wasn't really into talking to me.
I still feel a bit in-limbo, because even though he's changed completely to before when he was friendly enough, but would NEVER text me first and sometimes would not reply to me at all, and when we saw each other at work it was very brief and we didn't have a proper conversation or flirting or anything like that. I still feel a bit strange about the situation. Because as little as about 2/3 weeks ago, I was in complete despair and he felt further away than ever and completely shut down from me. He says regularly how sorry he is for the way he treated me and I've genuinely forgiven him for that and see it all in the past - after-all, I want a completely NEW relationship with this man, so everything from before has been cancelled out and wiped clean in my eyes. He says he's sorry but at the same time he doesn't say or hint that he wants to try again with me, but I guess I just need to be patient and wait. I know these little questioning doubts is what quashed our romance before and drove him away and me insane
so I am doing everything I can to stop questioning WHEN WHY HOW and just go with the flow, let The Universe handle it for me as it's done pretty well so far!
I know this is VERY LONG so if you are still reading - thank you
I just wanted to share what has been happening, and I truly KNOW it is all down to changing my thinking, Remote Seduction and visualising what relationship I WANT and WILL HAVE with this man - eventually. The things I've mentioned might seem small to someone else, but to go from things being SO bad and awkward and seemingly hopeless - to us talking naturally and regularly, all feels like steps in the right direction
I'm going to focus on myself and these little achievements and baby steps every time I feel a wobble and start doubting. And of course, keep visiting this lovely forum to feel inspired and uplifted by this wonderful supportive community
Thank you for reading and please let me know what you think about my story so far! Mwah
xoxo
June 18, 2010, 05:56:34 PM
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