Really important to me...

[pc]

Hey everybody , and first of all , I must say that I am so grateful for this forum
I was thinking and visualising and then I realize something...
My life goal is have a great career and make a difference in art and world , I want to help society and people through my art and be one of the biggest artists in my area , I believe truthfully that Art is one of the biggest weapons to help people and make some good changes in the world
So , I live in a small country and my parents don't have economic possibilities to give me the education I prefer , so they want me to stay in my home town and study art here. I live here since I was born and never really fit in , never like being here , actually I don't feel myself here , I'm always sad and I feel like a prisoner , I have no independence , no hopes for a best future , always alone... I am naturally a very pessimist and negative person , I was raised to be "realistic" and to have a "real , normal life", but I never wanted the life that my family wanted for me , so I said to them that I will be an artist , my parents disagreed and they don't accepted my wishes initially , so after four or five years they finally accepted.  In my country art education in my area is very poor and classical , I tried to study here , go to a school and I gave up because I wasn't feeling good there , my instinct know that it was wrong to be there and it was in a different town , far for my family , but even there I don't feel my life moving on , I was feeling stuck just like I feel in my home town.  I always dreamed about studying in other country with other people , culture and to grow up as an artist and a person. Have my independence , found love , feel really happy , feel the future and feel that I am living my life...
I found the school I want to go and I believe that I would be accepted in that school if I trying to get it. I believe in my talent , always believed that I was made for great things, I feel in my heart that is my destiny or my existence goal... Art is the only thing that fulfils me and when the only place when I am really really happy , so full of grateful feelings and love . So... should I visualise me enter in the school , only? or should I visualise money to be able to live in other country and study in that school? Or both? Is difficult to me , because my parents always says to me that we don't have money for me to go to out of the country , and live there and study there and I know is true!. Sometimes I feel like a selfish person, but I cant let my dreams and my passions go away. I also will do the applications to enter in my home town school , they feel that is the only option , but now , when I needed more , I found the LOA , and I'm sure its a signal. I am so tired of felling that I am not living my life...

Love for all

[pc]

Well the guide for applications its now online , and it gets worse. At one point the school asks how can we will pay the course, I really really have no idea , I don't have that money , I must send the application before 31 May. I have no money , right now I don't know what to do , I cant be positive if I knew that my happiness is almost impossible... I never wanted my life to be like this. I really want these things to happen and visualise them but never happen... I know I must be positive but right now I cant , I really want to believe is going to happen , but it seems so far , always so far...

[Jeremiah]

PC,
I think we have all been in a similar situation in one way or another, where we really want something, are doing as best we can with our actions and thoughts, yet never seem to get anywhere.  It is quite frustrating. 

A couple of thoughts.  For one, your feelings are just as important in the process of attracting as your thoughts.  It is evident that while your thoughts have been on what you want, you have been feeling the desperation and despair that accompanies the current lack of it.  By feeling this way, you are continuing to attract more of the lack. 

This is perhaps the most challenging part of utilizing LOA.  You must suspend all doubt and say the following in absolute truth:

"I know that things are at work right now to bring me to the fulfillment of my destiny.  Though I do not see it, I know it is true, and already I feel deep gratitude in my heart for it.  Already things are beginning to work out for me.  My family has come to terms with me wanting to be an artist, which they once rejected.  Yes!!!!  I have found a wonderful online support group that will help me as I continue to strive to act and think and feel in the certain way I need to in order to manifest my destiny.  Yes!!!!  Even though there is so much that remains to be done, yet I acknowledge and am deeply grateful for what has been done, and have absolute faith that more will be done until one day outward reality finally catches up with the thoughts and feelings within me, for already I think feel and act as if I am already there, thus I know one day I will be."

Meanwhile let me share with you the following quote from "The Science of Getting Rich" by Wallace D. Wattles, which was Rhonda Byrne's inspiration for "The Secret".

"Do not cast about seeking some new thing to do, or some strange, unusual, or remarkable action to perform as a first step toward getting rich.  It is probably that your actions, at least for some time to come, will be those you have been performing for some time past; but you are to begin now to perform in the Certain Way, which will surely make you rich."

I quote this passage to let you know that while it is NOT impossible for a "miracle" to happen and you find the money and get into the school one way or another sooner rather than later, don't let it discourage you, and keep doing the best you can with where you are at.

There are many more quotes from this wonderful book that I think would be applicable to you, but rather than quote them all here, I'd just encourage you to go read it yourself if you haven't already.  You can download an electronic copy for free at www.thesecret.tv.

Cheers and blessings!

[Jeremiah]

Here is a link that takes you directly to the book:

http://images.thesecret.tv/The-Science-of-Getting-Rich.pdf

[pc]

Thank you so much

[Jeremiah]

My pleasure!   

[vpsean]

Hey PC,

I think I responded to a similar question of yours in the 'hello' forum section, so be sure to check that response :-)

With Love & Gratitude,
--Sean Patrick Simpson
www.AdventuresInManifesting.org
www.AlskaPublishing.com

[57angel]

PC, you really know what you want in your life, what is it that will make you happy - you are way way ahead of getting your dreams! Your assignment now is to "believe and to receive - that is allowing your dreams to manifest". Now that you know that thoughts become things, do everything to make you feel better. Develop the attitude of gratitude, do your affirmations, let go of those negative feelings, doubts and fears and visualize. You are on the right road to success, commit to change your belief system associated with the desires of your heart and you will see

[tereza]

PC focus on the end result and leave the "how" up to the universe.