sending love

[beautifulmesss12sc]

Last night i was sending my guy some love ... it was great we were both making the pink bubble bigger and bigger laughing and playing like we were kids... then the bubble floated up in the air and floated down over/around  us and we embraced and kissed .. it felt awesome... he was really getting into it it wasnt just me making it happen

today i went thru a few hrs of just crying and being negative (or maybe not negative but a little mad ) and melancholy.. have been doing that alot lately... seem slike i am up and down  last week or two

[simplyjess]

hey beautiful =) sorry to hear that you're going through a tough time.

i was going through the same thing about 2 weeks ago, and like you, i've been experiencing my fair share of ups and downs. And I was sad to the point that I wanted to give up and not send love anymore.

But yesterday I realized something: When I was sending him love, I didn't have enough energy to send AND to sustain myself (my own happiness). Hence, I felt drained and frustrated because I have depleted all my positive energy while focusing so much on sending the energy to HIM.

Right now, I tell myself the first step is to build my energy "bank" up first, to the point when it's so full that I can send love to anyone WITHOUT draining myself. For me, I elevate my energy level through yoga. We do breathing exercises (Pranayama) and with each inhale, I visualize I draw in new life, new energy inside my body. And with each exhale, I let go of any thoughts and doubts that are limiting. With all that energy, you also need to ground (contain) it within yourself first, really building up that energy bank inside.

If you want, I recommend trying Pranayama and doing "Tree Pose (Vrksasana)" because it teaches you these principles very well. Like a tree, we have to ground our "roots", staying connected, paying attention to ourselves first as we draw in energy from our surroundings (and from doing the things we love). From having a firm connection within, I find it easier lift myself into a more positive mood (like a tree growing taller). And at last, your energy grows to a point where you're ready to share it with others (think of the branches growing and blossoming!).

Hope that helps! Will send you positive energy while I'm in yoga class! =)

[beautifulmesss12sc]

Ty Kaori... i dont do Yoga ... maybe i should look into it ...

but i dont think that its so much draining my energy .. but like u said b4 sometimes i jst wanna give up ... and as positive as his reaction was with him participating in it.(helping me make the pink bubble).. ive never experienced that b4 it just happened ... i jst felt sad the next day

[JustForToday]

Ty Kaori... i dont do Yoga ... maybe i should look into it ...

but i dont think that its so much draining my energy .. but like u said b4 sometimes i jst wanna give up ... and as positive as his reaction was with him participating in it.(helping me make the pink bubble).. ive never experienced that b4 it just happened ... i jst felt sad the next day

hey, i think due to your emotinonal experience with the bubble, you coulndt stay deatched as much as you want or need to..... happened to me he first time too.
step a few days back from it if it gets too emotional and then do it again, when you feel strong and detached.
concentrate more on making yourself happy right now, to come in this statement of trust and allowance.
and try to let him go for now, completely forget about him and the outcome.

once, you are feeling stable, you can start with sending your love again

[tereza]

But yesterday I realized something: When I was sending him love, I didn't have enough energy to send AND to sustain myself (my own happiness). Hence, I felt drained and frustrated because I have depleted all my positive energy while focusing so much on sending the energy to HIM.

I think you might be onto something here.

I know for me, if I'm not feeling good, it means that something is off balance and I need to turn my focus on me. I've never really connected it to not having enough energy, but it actually makes a lot of sense.

[simplyjess]

Ty Kaori... i dont do Yoga ... maybe i should look into it ...

but i dont think that its so much draining my energy .. but like u said b4 sometimes i jst wanna give up ... and as positive as his reaction was with him participating in it.(helping me make the pink bubble).. ive never experienced that b4 it just happened ... i jst felt sad the next day

It was just an analogy, because it's through that pose that I learned more about sending love. For me, I was in the exact same situation: feeling great for a good week or so and boom suddenly I wake up the next day feeling sad. Still trying to get back to being happy right now...

When you feel sad, what thoughts are going through your mind? Are they all about him?