Hi iloverainbows
Well, on the plus side (and I am saying this without any irony - this is something the Barefoot Doctor recommends) - you should congratulate yourself on your excellent manifestation with the cafe. You "swore you'd never go back" and the universe helped you be true to this.
I really hope that doesn't sound snarky - I absolutely don't mean it to. It's just that one step in recovering your power is to recognise how much power you already have. You didn't want to go back, you made your intention clear, and that was delivered to you.
Overall, I think you need to let go. Again, this is not said from any kind of position of superiority - I have exactly the same problem! But somehow it's easier to see when it's someone else doing it and not me
I don't know what's going on with all the little nuances and details with your friends, but I do think you manifested it in one way or another. This is not to say that you are to "blame" - just that, on some level, this is what you've requested from the universe. Maybe you felt these friends weren't quite right for you, or maybe you have some insecurities that you need to work on - I really can't tell as a third party observer with only one side of the story to work with. But you need to get in touch with what you want and need, and you also need to get in touch with your "source". Because friendship issues are usually about a sense of love and belonging, and all the LOA sources tell us that this starts with
ourselves. You can never feel lonely or rejected if you are connected to your source.
The hard part is turning your attention away from the current external manifestation and back to that connection. As with all things, I really really recommend meditation. Others with recommend ho'ponopono or EFT. Find what works for you. But I still recommend meditation
- the kind that focusses on the pauses between your thoughts, and the identification with your inner joy. It sounds so hokey and twee, but it's completely transformed my life. And I just again read this weekend about, how when you enter that state of 'non-thinking' (aka Pure Awareness), then all problems melt away. Both internally and with your external manifestations. I've had it work enough times for me to know that it's true (and even so, I still have occasional doubts, so try not to worry about that)
Keep us updated - and don't forget to notice and be grateful for the things that go exactly the way you want them to - this is another thing that works wonders - sometimes to the point of miracles.
August 02, 2012, 12:09:58 AM
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