I asked for a ''sign'' yesterday that i was going to see something happen with the guy i work with (he's not an ex) or at least that i am on the right path and i should continue on, well i received my specific sign i asked for only a few hours later.
Since then i have journaled my NEW POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS no more talk or writing about what i am getting from him, what i see or feel when he is around. I am only looking to what I WANT TO SEE AND FEEL and will only now attract what i want from him!
So this is what has been on my mind since yesterday after i received the sign, its a feeling i can't shake and have thought about all day today.
I am going to be making a few changes at work starting tomorrow....this will affect (i hope positively) my situation with him, i have already been shifting my energy to the positive ONLY WANTNG TO SEE, FEEL AND BE POSITIVE hopefully for good this time. No more focusing on what i am seeing or getting at the moment from him
, no more attracting back to myself what he is doing, i feel thats what i have been doing and thats why his situation (anxiety and shyness) is all i am getting and what is keeping me on this see saw ride with him...i hope i am making sense?
I am going to change my schedule around starting tomorrow...as much as i can without making things too difficult on myself. I am going to see if not being face to face with him
helps me to stay positive, be in my positive vibrational mode and not become happy or sad depending on his mood or attention he gives me or does not give me. I can do this at certain times through out the day, and eventually it will become my new routine...which is what i want.
I just need to separate from him in that respect to keep myself positive and not make it all about him at the same time be able to concentrate on other things positively and not just him..where he is, what is he doing, etc. AND to really just LET GO...and ALLOW what i need to come to me! I have felt a block where he is concerned YET i get signs about him ALL THE TIME as soon as i ask i get them and i continue on! So, my intention is (especially today) that i need to do this for me, its my gut feeling!
Annnnd Quitting my job is just not an option...as someone suggested
i am lucky to have this position and i need to make a certain kind of money to pay my bills...i am a single woman, never married and i support myself 100% with this job at the school. I love the condo i live in, i worked hard to be here and i need to keep things going for myself...this condo gives me such pride and joy because i got it on my own
I feel i can stay positive and focused if i am not fixated on him all the time...changing my schedule will help me do that. My only fear is that he will take this as a negative, like i am ''hiding'' from him..or that i no longer want to speak to him for whatever reason he creates in his mind?
He is ultrasensitive wher i am concerned it seems.
Is that usual to worry so much about the person you are trying to connect with? I just don't want this to come back to me as a negative when i have worked so hard to only put out the positive affirmations and expectations i have been working so hard on this weekend..especially after i got my sign telling me to continue on!
Lastly, can i consider this Detachment? And if so, can i consider this taking an Inspired Action since once i go this idea in my mind i haven't been able to shake it?
I have never considered changing my schedule this drastically before...but i feel i need to do this, even though it could back fire.
Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this, where they needed to create a wall, if you will so you could let go and work on yourself?
I would love to get some feed back from all of you..Thank you!!!