I'm Tired

[Pretty_Smile]

I've been doing my best to stay positive and be grateful but it just really feels like I'm faking it. I'm unhappy and I just feel like a zombie just existing and not really living,all this pressure on me is just making me more depressed and worried about the future. Something has gotta give cause if things don't get better I don't wanna live life anymore. Everyone I know would probably be better off without me anyway.

[Mr Brightside]

Thats a terrible thing to say, and not true at all. What is the issue in your life? Before you even answer it i can tell you its not worth feeling like your life is a waste.

[Pretty_Smile]

It feels like it. Nothing is going right. I don't have a car, I don't have a job and I've put in applications everywhere,I might not be able to return to school and my mom works but she needs help because her hours have been cut and I've been trying my best find a job so I can help her out with the bills and my little sister and also my friend said that he wants to be with me but he has a lot of things to and has to get himself together and that this isn't the time to for us to get together. I just can't stop crying.

[Pretty_Smile]

I feel like a big failure. At twenty years old I should be able to do more

[Mr Brightside]

Your not, trust me more people are in your situation than you think. Things change, it takes time and effort to get past these things. You need to find that inner desire to make the situation better, dont quit on yourself or your dream, because trust me you can make it. Talk to anyone you know, they all had down times in their life ... its what you do to get out that counts

[Pretty_Smile]

I feel a little better now but what do I do now ? And one reason I was so upset was because I was surrounded by constant negativity and it took its toll on me. But my question is how do I build myself and my circumstances back to being positive ? Every one of them.

[uncle]

if it's any comfort, i can tell you that you're not alone. in fact, you're better off than a whole bunch of people i know. if you are debt-free, if you're healthy, if noone is chasing you etc etc you're doing fine (or not as bad as you might).

the thing is, you can wary all you want it won't make the situation better. i was in a situation similar to yours in very recent past (only i'm way older than you with nothing to show for it) and the way i handled it was to send job applications, tried this and that and nothing worked, but i was aware that even if i become homeless, with no family and friends etc. so what? whattayagonnado? so i did all those things with as much emotional investment as if i was washing dishes, watching tv or any other activity you really don't pay attention to. gradually situation became better. i'm not yet where i would actually want to be, but i'm not chasing it either. if it comes - it comes. if not, who cares. i don't have much to lose so i have not so much to wary about, which means it can only get better.

this kind of attitude requires a certain level of awareness and maturity, but if you think logically, the situation is like it is, so in the end it's you choice if you are going to go through this experience feeling bad and depressed or relaxed and at ease because you can not do much about your situation right now, so why not feel good if the results are the same?

[Sneha]

if it's any comfort, i can tell you that you're not alone. in fact, you're better off than a whole bunch of people i know. if you are debt-free, if you're healthy, if noone is chasing you etc etc you're doing fine (or not as bad as you might).

the thing is, you can wary all you want it won't make the situation better. i was in a situation similar to yours in very recent past (only i'm way older than you with nothing to show for it) and the way i handled it was to send job applications, tried this and that and nothing worked, but i was aware that even if i become homeless, with no family and friends etc. so what? whattayagonnado? so i did all those things with as much emotional investment as if i was washing dishes, watching tv or any other activity you really don't pay attention to. gradually situation became better. i'm not yet where i would actually want to be, but i'm not chasing it either. if it comes - it comes. if not, who cares. i don't have much to lose so i have not so much to wary about, which means it can only get better.

this kind of attitude requires a certain level of awareness and maturity, but if you think logically, the situation is like it is, so in the end it's you choice if you are going to go through this experience feeling bad and depressed or relaxed and at ease because you can not do much about your situation right now, so why not feel good if the results are the same?

very well said!This is the way to manifest desire.
My two cents to it would be like get up at aa  time when u would if u had to go to work and sleep early like u have to go to work early.This programmes the subconcious.